The Jedi Temple (open)

Day 0 - Youngling

Stress for work within these past days have been too much. I know it's not an excuse to continue to do what I do, but I have to find a better way to deal with this. Back to meditating

 

439 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Starting again at day 0

 

44 Days - Jedi Knight

 

Day 5 as a Jedi Youngling. I found it difficult to get out of bed this morning and to motivate myself to be active. Having a lot of negative emotions come up, trauma from the past. I think I was emotionally neglected as a child by my parents. I feel physical disgust anytime I get close to my parents, and I don't have one memory of them comforting or hugging me. I just felt like an alien in the house. Well, I bring this up because my therapist wants me to recognize my feelings that I've suppressed over the years, and these feelings I think went a long way to push me into porn addiction. Not feeling emotionally secure, I was never confident in myself, I just felt weak and unimportant. I never had a positive vision for my own life, my vision was of anxiety and fear. If I had emotional support, and that I felt confident about myself because I would have had parents who were emotionally secure about themselves, then I think it would have been a lot harder to develop a porn addiction.

 

Day 37
Jedi Knight.

 

Day 44, the force is getting stronger!

 

Day 0: youngling

I've been on the forums for a month now. And I'm back on a new streak. Not disappointed, since I've learned a lot, but I am a little miffed that I wasn't able to keep myself on track for more than 5 days.

 

Day 1, checking in

 

Yes... more youngllings to turn to the da-- I mean light side of the force. Yes, always with the light. (lie)

 

Rank 0 - I relapsed yesterday in the early hours, so I just put everything to 12AM July 12th for no PMO/MO and meeting my goals

 

Day 1 - Youngling

 

Day 2 - Youngling

 

14 days, Padawan

 

440 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 85 Jedi Master

 

1 Day: youngling

 

day 62 - Jedi Master
I was anger with the PMO but doing that ... is like giving it importance in my life.
No longer.

 

45 Days - Jedi Knight