Got addicted again.

Hi, I am a 16 y/o male trying to quit porn just like others in this platform. But I think I am not so much an addict.

When I was 13 as far as I can remember, I came across with porn just by curiosity. But I got super addicted. I spent hours just by scrolling porn images. It made me hard but till then I was not familiar with the term masturbation. The first time I masturbated when I was about 14 and I can remember I used to do it almost 3 to 4 times a day. Then pimples started to appear and I got told by some of my friends that masturbation was the reason. Though there is no scientific evidence, I can still feel it is indeed the reason. I don't know why this ain't proven.

Anyways, since then I slowed a bit. I used to do it once in 2 days from then and pimples kept growing and growing. And I have a thing called sex headache. I used to have a strong headache almost every day after ejaculation. But my libido was soo soo high that I couldn't resist myself by any means. But there had been a change when I realized that it was too much and I need to stop right away. I came to realize that abstaining from masturbation does really make my face glow. And I obviously didn't want to be a ugly guy for the rest of my life. It was when I was almost 16 and it really worked well. From then I started to keep a break of almost a week between each masturbation. A few months back from now, I decided that I will never ever do masturbation again and won't watch porn as well. And I am proud to say that I successfully stayed away for 2 months straight. The feeling was amazing! My brain got damn faster than before and I became beautiful again just like when I was a child. Compliments kept coming and honestly, I liked it. I thought finally I have broken my addiction and still I think I have.

Then I decided to give myself a reward for my achievement and that is to masturbate once again and just for once. I watched porn again for almost 2 hours straight and jerked off a few moments later. It felt incredible to be back! I couldn't resist myself and I did it 3 times that day. And also I masturbated 3 times the next day each including porn.

I got addicted again! And this seems to be more powerful than before. Pimples appearing to my face again. And I don't want it honestly but I can't resist. And shame to say I have a really small penis about 5.1 inches long and 4.5 inches girthed when erect. I am accusing masturbation for this as well. I don't think I have a good sex life ahead and I am damn depressed about it. All I need now is someone to understand me and my urge to be a better myself. I need help. I never watch porn which include male actors because they look so dirty and of course they remind me of my inability. I am totally new here and don't know what to do. That's why I am creating this thread. Hope to get some good advices.