I am extremely addicted to porn

What type of strategy have you tried so far? Are you even keeping track of all the attempts, writing it down so you can learn from past mistakes, etc?

 

Llevar un registro de caídas. En un calendario te dará una visión general de lo q te ocurre y si los fin de semana somos más propensos ....
La culpa y la tristeza peligrosas en exceso, Dios te de paz y fuerzas para seguir luchando igual que a todos nosotros .....amén

 

Be humble and begin the climb back up

 

“When one has made a decision to kill a person, even if it will be very difficult to succeed by advancing straight ahead, it will not do to think about going at it in a long roundabout way. One's heart may slacken, he may miss his chance, and by and large there will be no success. The Way of the Samurai is one of immediacy, and it is best to dash in headlong.”

-Tsunetomo Yamamoto. “Hagakure: the book of the samurai.”

Spoiler

While some of his quotes are inspirational the book is by and large full of nonsense and a sense of nostalgia for a time that never happened so if you were thinking of getting it, just don't.

 

hey cut out that bullshit about killing yourself!

you shit your pants and now it's time to clean them bro. is the cleaning gonna be easy? not even remotely. is it gonna be well worth it? more than you can imagine.

about 2 years ago I was in that same mental space, addicted to porn that I hated but I couldn't stop.

now I'm on my 90 day streak after a lot of fails and after a lot of prayer.

you're only 16!! you've got at least 6 more years till you stop growing and your brain forms.

if you stop now I guarantee that you'll forget about all those disgousting fetishes (most of us addicts have) in about 2 years.

the hatred you have for yourself should be focused on the demons and your sin!

God is the wisest person that exists and he loves you even though you do that stuff, that means you should love yourself too.

now lift your head up son! I know it hurts but that's life, it's hitting you hard. the thing you gotta do is learn to fight it!

the first part of becoming well is realising you aren't well. you're on step one, good luck on this road to salvation.

 

The Book Of Five Rings is way better (in-relation to your last sentence)

 

I guess you're in the same place that I am: "Hey, it's easy to quit. I've done it hundreds of times!" Ha. Ha. Ha.

I've looked at sh*t for more than 60 years! Probably addicted for about the last half of that time. Okay, you're hooked on on gross stuff. Now it's time to start looking at something called "nothing."

Doesn't matter how far out you've gone. The decision to stop is still available to you. And you can make the choice in any given moment not to look at anything. That's where you have the power, not the porn. And a key is the "anything." After being on hard stuff, I've lied to myself that it's okay to look at some supposedly "innocent" drawing, etc. Well, good luck with that. I'm an addict! I should know better.

I recommend you set a day counter. If I want to be in the game, I'm keeping score.

As far as your level of desperation, I believe you can deal with it. You made the choice to come here and let it out. Keep up the work and keep the faith. You'll be okay.

Best wishes.

 

A lot of recovery involves not being ashamed but acknowledging that you've fallen and need to stand up. The road to recovery will have a lot more falling and stumbling down but if you want it then you will achieve what you want. Stop beating yourself up as it leads to nothing useful but acknowledge that you're going through stuff that's mostly normal for a lot of people and that you can and will do better. Best of luck man, beware the younger ages as I'm sure you've seen stuff much worse than what you've talked about here, that stuff is a slippery slope and WILL lead you into trouble.

 

Dude I will not say that this is "norm" because it really is very bad this phase, I've had the same thoughts and even in taking my life, but I'm turning it around, put a focus on your life, and goes avoiding dude, look for something to do, what I'll indicate to you is to read enough self-help books , a lot speak badly but it is very good.