is my kink porn induced?

Think about this, when you were born you had a clean slate, so naturally everything we do is learned, is your fetish learned? of course! is wanting to have sex a specific way learned? or course!

 

Just try quitting porn and you will have a clearly answer. Lots of thoughts like that goes down with porn, so maybe this is just you being horny.

In case that was not because of porn and you really like that, you will eventually find someone that understand you, but first you need to have a clear mind.

 

Hello and welcome to NoFap. I don't have personal experience with this particular fetish but I do have experience with fetishism. I would say that - probably (I am not an authority on this) - kinks are not porn or fetish induced per se but sexuality-induced more generally. If porn is how we explore our sexuality, and we stumble upon fetish porn, we could blame the porn but porn is just a proxy for sexual exploration - kinks or fetishes are ultimately driven by our built-in sexual desires and our brains inadvertently making associations between non-sexual things and those desires.

In my case I was getting turned on by women in bondage long before I even knew about porn. In fact, I've hardly ever watched sex or nudity online or looked at it in magazines, etc. I developed a fetish at a young age and the fetish pretty much drove itself without porn, or rather without porn in the 'normal' sense - but this is kind of my point, I've not really looked at any so I wouldn't know! I've been so ashamed in the past that I wished I had a 'normal porn addiction' because it would be easier to open up about, but I'm less ashamed in that way now. I'm learning that there are many who struggle with fetishism and I am not alone.

It can be really hard to identify what causes our fetishes and that's okay - you are not alone. It's good to explore the possible causes. And it's not uncommon for fetishes to develop over time and accumulate new kinks. But ultimately, it's all fueled by our need for sexual gratification.

 

Hey,

Yes, I had a pee fetish for my entire life that I secretly struggled with. I hated it.
The good news is that it can be overcome!

The primary thing about this fetish is that it latches itself onto sensitive sensory-motor pressures in the body. It is also directly connected to sexual organs and pleasure so it can indeed cause several layers of confusion when destructive things like porn is involved to reinforce this anatomical confusion in the brain and heart.

For me personally, the kink was also rooted psychologically in childhood trauma, Fear, shame, embarrassment, deep insecurity, relational intimacy issues, anatomical confusion, and several unmet emotional needs.

Feel free to read my journal (The first 40 days of it). It may help unpack a few things regarding this fetish.

I also log my journey in overcoming OCD, intrusive thoughts, and anxiety.

Take care.

 

sounds like escalation to me, probably porn induced

 

Agreed about the OP being porn induced, because my former pee fetish started out as trauma-based, then as a teenager it hooked itself onto my "sexuality," then I later learned the actual healthy way of releasing liquid via squirting during intercourse.

 

Good for you for reaching out.

As you can see from @XandeXIV and @GodsDaughter , a fetish tends to materialize before or independent of the P, where a P induced kink only materializes after a person has seen it in P. And as @trshy says, an "easy" way to tell is to quit P and see if anything changes.

Your P induced kink is a little unusual, but it's a "thing," and outside of the typical emotional numbing, dehumanization, and misinformation universal to P, it's a harmless kink. This is not evidence that you're exceptionally strange in any sense.