Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts

sam30 · Jul 30, 2021

Dr.J_76ers said: ↑

I was feeling suicidal with HOCD in December of last year. I started NoFap in January, and could only get 1-3 day streaks. But between January and March my mental health improved drastically. Just get away from the porn, get your mom to put in blockers on all devices (if she knows about your problems) or put them in yourself. I have a 15 day streak now, which I feel proud of! If you abstain from porn and fetishes you have, I promise you that you will feel better, even good eventually.
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What is your mental health symptom when it got better after your longest streak?

Anurag12 · Jul 30, 2021

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I figure it out that NoFap it's not for me and cannot do it. I can't go for more than 3 days, my tastes in porn gave me nightmares, confusion, fear, guilt, depression and anxiety. My life in the past 4 months was a hell. I had periods when I thought that I get better and everything will eventually solve, but that only lasted for maybe 4 - 5 days and then I started to have, again, anxiety attacks.

I have mood changes, a constant depressive state, questioning which lead me to think about some things that lead to anxiety attacks. When I have these attacks, everything bad that happened in my life regarding that subject comes at ones. I can barely go throughout my daily life and I try to hide this from my family as well as I can, because I don't want to make things worse.

Maybe I am too scarred, too brainwashed and desensitized to get better...or maybe that's who I am and I deny this to myself. It's very confusing that this happened now and not much earlier in my life, when I could cope better with this. Well, I may never find out. I hate this life.

Good luck to everyone! Maybe you will find your way to get better.
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Your story is exactly to similar to mine, I can relate your situation with mine, that I have dealt in the past for 3 years but brother, One good news I have for you.
There is always light at the end of the tunnel and that can only be done with started that you 1st stop watching porn.

The main culprit here is porn through which you have fallen into PMO thing.

You are not mental, you are not an addict, it's just that time is testing your will power.
Once you pass this phase of life you will not imagine that life is so really beautiful.

After reading your condition, I feel like killing all porn industries with AK47 for ruining people's life by throwing them like worthless.

I raise my hand to help you in this time. I will guide you to come out of this.
Take one day at a time. You will start seeing improvements.

Do message me personally, if I can do anything for you.

Dr.J_76ers · Jul 30, 2021

sam30 said: ↑

What is your mental health symptom when it got better after your longest streak?
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Are you asking about my mental health now? I don't feel depressed, though I would say every 3 days or so I get into a sad mood, but only for a few hours. These "sad moods" may also be a function of me listening to sad music so I'm not sure. But yeah I don't feel depressed everyday and I feel somewhat less numb towards activities in daily life. I do still have OCD however, which causes me to have intrusive thoughts. Last winter these used to be HOCD thoughts, but now it's less sexual/porn-related and less frequent in volume (more related to work and other things).

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