The best way to commit suicide.

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

 

...then live.

Otherwise they're fucked.

 

@jurte

I can't imagine the pain and confusion you're feeling, but I do understand the certainty you feel. I used to be certain that I was transgender, or at least destined to be a transsexual sex toy. I was certain I could not live without porn, and that I'd be a sexual deviant forever. I was certain my life was only downhill from here.

I was also 100% wrong. You may be certain that ending your life is the only solution to your issues, but I believe you are wrong.

I don't know anything about your history, but I do know things can change for you. It will be hard. And it will seem like things are getting worse at first. But things can change. You just need to take the right steps. PMOing constantly puts your mind in a state of both inaction and anxiety. Do a reboot, and then see if you feel the same.

 

1. Any Alpha/Beta stuff you see about humans is nonsense. Alpha male species are ones where small amounts of males are in charge of the protection and sexual activities of the females in their groups. This was commonly seen in chimpanzee colonies. HOWEVER, humans do not have this same dichotomy. Whereas chimpanzees work most efficiently with Alpha-male social/sexual dynamics, humans work most efficiently with monogamous partners, or pair bonds. We are even biologically wired for this. Chimps have a very large testicleenis ratio (since they need bigger balls to produce more sperm and penis size doesn't matter as much because competition is reduced, the opposite is true in humans) and chimp mothers usually give birth to just one male and many females (only one male is necessary for the colony to survive, unlike humans where birth rates are close to 50/50 because each male is valuable). Human babies mature much more slowly than chimp babies and are much more vulnerable to predation because human parents can split the duties of childcare/protection and acquiring food in monogamous relationships. I could go on, but this alpha-male stuff is BS. You're not a chimp, you're a human, just as valuable and capable as the rest of us.

2. If that doesn't get in somehow, look up the two main "alpha-male strategies" for chimps. One is the typical "big strong angry" chimp, who is the best fighter, often overly aggressive, and attacks the other chimps to get them to do what they want, often the females and weaker children. The other winning strategy for alpha male chimps is be caring towards the female chimps, make an alliance, and then kick out the old alpha. These chimps that use their brains often have more sexual opportunities because they do not attack the females, and if the lone male mothers often had males weren't always significantly larger, scientists think this could have been the dominant strategy for chimp alphas.

3. I may be on a long streak now, but when it started, I was definitely not what you call an "alpha" and I really did not have my life figured out. I was failing all my classes, crying every night, and feeling rejected by women. Did not know how I would continue forward. I did a reboot to recenter myself, started dating around day 70, then got in a relationship with my current girlfriend. No release for extended periods of time sucks, but it's easy when you have someone to have sex with on a normal basis. My streak says 274 but I don't even know if it's accurate. I'm gonna do one in the next few weeks FOR FUN because I haven't been appreciating my girlfriend enough.

I definitely don't have my life figured out. I have no idea what I want to do after college, I still live with my parents, and I worry about shit all the time. I'm definitely not an alpha either. I almost cried because someone yelled at me at work today, I like to be the little spoon with my girlfriend, and I got upset when she asked me to choke her during drunk sex last week.

Life isn't about these ultimatums that you're seeing. There is not just the alpha and beta. There is not just success and failure. There is not just suffering or death. There is more to life, and a lot of it is in the grays. A lot of it is in the journey towards your goals and successes. You may not see it this way now, but I guarantee once your head is above the water, you'll know what I'm talking about. Just give yourself some time to calm down and think of your plan forward

 

Bro.

You're loved.

The world can be a hellish place, and there's things that can suck in it.

But life is worth living. You are loved. The world is better because you're alive on the face of it.

Many of us have been where you've been. Some of us more recently than others.

As someone who has been actively trying to get out of this addiction for years and didn't see real success until 2 months ago, let me tell you, the path is hella hard... But hella worth it.

Life . gets . better

Yes, there will be challenges. But you can overcome them. And there are people who love you and want to overcome those challenges with you.

Suicide isn't the way. It never is.

I have a dear friend who committed suicide 3 years ago. I still think about her all the time. The world is actively worse because she's not on it anymore. Never a time passes that I think of her and don't wish I could have done something to save her.

If I had the chance, I would go back in time and tell her the same thing I'm telling you now:

Please, please, don't. Don't even let the idea bounce around in your head. You're much too precious, much too loved, and much too valuable to go out that way. You've been given a destiny, to bring life and light to the world around you. I know it's dark right now, but the sun will rise.

I and everyone who knows you is better for having known you.

So, please, don't do it. Do what you need to do to get better. Because you can get better. There's a way out of this that doesn't end in blood and tears.

Take the path of life, because your life is precious.



You're loved bro. We love you. Your parents love you. God loves you.

Don't go down that path.

Choose life.

We're here for you. And so are these guys.

 

Friend, please don't do this. You can get through this. We will help.

When I was your age I was often on 0 day streak. Again and again. Heck, When I was in my mid twenties I was still on PMO more than once a day. I was in my 30s before I got to the kind of streak I'm on now. The point is, it takes time to get where we are. And even then, we are only human. These streaks could break at any point. I thought about breaking it this morning.

Also, these counters are not only for ourselves, they are for each other.

50 days, 300 days, 1000 days? These tell us that streaks are possible. Doesn't mean we all have to have one. We just need to keep striving towards whatever number is bigger than today's number. Even if the number resets that same day.

0 days? Everyone else on 0 days sees that and they think "I'm not alone". Even on 0 you can still be an encouragement to others. When I mess up and break my streak... I need to see that others are the the same. That I am human, just like everybody else.

No matter what your number is or what your streak is, you are victorious in that you recognise you have a problem and that you need help. More important than any number is the fact that you are here. When I was 21 I would not have dreamed of joining a forum like this. In this respect, you are a better man than me. If only my 21 year-old self was that brave and that honest with himself. He was always on 0 days and wouldn't admit it to anyone and didn't bother to see if anybody else was.

Please, don't leave us.

 

May I ask why you are suicidal?

 

Read your other post. Sounds like you have bipolar disorder. Been here before, call non emergency services on yourself (in my case my ex did), say exactly what you said in that other post and see what they think. Officers will show up and take you to the psychiatric ward. You’ll have to spend hundreds on the room, and clear a psych evaluation to be released. You will be mandated to see psychologists and/or psychiatrists through your medical insurance, or the officers will come and take you back to the psych ward. They will work out a treatment plan with you.

Or you can grow the fuck up, get your dumb ass to the doctor’s yourself and start to turn your life around. “Oh how do I not shock my parents, oh my brother will be sad, girl I like will forget me, ex will cry”. The fuck is wrong with you? What kind of selfish ass bullshit is all that? I’d punch you for being this fucking pathetic.

I expect to hear what medication you and your doctor have discussed. Lamotrigine has worked well for me.

 

That's not true, at all, and trust, I have been in your shoes, and thinking exactly that, in fact, the "weak must die" part of it still shapes a big chunk of my mindset, and not like I'm enjoying it.

Never kill yourself, if it's you or the world, burn the world, if it's you or any enemy, kill the enemy.
If you think you can't, hurt, if you think you can't, annoy, if you think you can't, you are wrong.
Punch, if you cannot punch kick, if you cannot kick bite, if you cannot bite crawl if necessary, never surrender your life.

You are stronger than you can even fanthom, ALWAYS! ALWAYS! if you have to choose between tackling an enemy, a challenge, whatever, or ending yourself, END THE OTHER ONE! not you.

Surrendering, is NOT AN OPTION.

That's what weak people do and you ain't weak! you may in a deep hole right now, feeling weak, but that ain't you! that is just where you are now!

All the best

 

Hello,


I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait.


In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.


You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

 

what we focus on becomes bigger so lets focus on fullfilling life instead of darkness, bring yourself back to the colony an not towards certain doom comrade

 

it is not survival of the strongest, just the fittest;

 

Bet you Wouldn't be thinking this once you get a decent streak going

ON YOUR F#CKING FEET SOLDIER!!! its not ever yet!

 

Suicide is simply just passing on the pain you feel onto others. There is no way that it can be done without drastically changing the lives of others. I urge you to seek help, regardless of how far gone you believe yourself to be, there is always time to change. Life is worth living my friend. Get on NoFap, start implementing some healthy habits into your life, exercise, meditation and what not. Seek some therapy to help you understand your thought patterns and how you can deal with them.

Get your ass on a long streak, and then come back and thank us all when you are loving life, feeling absolute confidence in yourself and smashing all the boundaries you set around yourself.

The fight is not over yet, get up, dust yourself off and get the fuck back into the battle soldier!

 

Damn I can feel you brah, I was thinking about killing my self since a long time but I couldn't do because of my parents, I don't wanna hurt them, I mean even if I arrange to make seem naturally, they will still feel sad about my death, I don't wanna my mother to be on tears, so I am just living and trying to survive for the sake of not making my parents crying Just keep resisting bro!