I quit. Want to die.

Ankur:

Please look up a hotline for depression and suicide, and call it RIGHT NOW.

I'm deeply concerned for you; I would love to help you. And I think this advice is my best help right now.

I'm praying for you, right now. Please call someone who can help...RIGHT NOW.

 

im in the same boat! i lost my soul five years ago too actually. ive been through the ringer and back. i am emotionless. thats why i started PMOing 6 times a day. i lost the love of my life! most of my friends died! i went to jail for $3 of MARIJUANA of all things and now cant find a job anywhere! i am a stain on society according to most ppl! but i dont care. i dont really care about anything. most days i would prefer to not be here. but i have a great sense of humor. i laugh when i feel the hammer is about to fall. i see the humor in everything! doesnt mean i enjoy anything, just that i find everything to have humorous potential! because i take nothing seriously. what changed my life was adding that humor to it. so watch some comedians, adapt their personas! it's what i did involuntarily by accident and it helped me tremendously. i am by far no happier, better, anything. life sucks! but laughing takes the pain away. laughter is a vacation for a moment from horror

 

First of all calm down, you're panicking all over, that's of no use to you. So STOP.

Many of use wanted to quit at many points, that's very common actually, but you go take a rest, and a day later, a week later or few hours later you get up and start progressing once more.

It's just your brain messing with you and you can choose not to listen that at any time, ignore it, rest, do some activity - few ab exercises, few push ups and you'll feel better instantly

As for health problem, you should go see a real doctor, theorizing about it here cannot do you any good, so visit your GP doctor and have a talk.

You will get to the goal in life, reading Tolle is a great sign of being on the right path.

Do few small things today, that make you happy, we are so obsessed and waiting for one BIG thing to happen. The BIG thing is just a result of many little things glued together with patience.

 

You WILL get through this. This depression and misery that you experience will make a great motivator and testimony one day. You will be able to say: "I once felt like I was down in the gutter, and look at me now. Look how I'm shining. Like God's beautiful, amazing creation."
Start with the things you CAN control. Stop focusing on stuff you can't control. You CAN control watching or not watching porn. Start there.
You CAN control whether you exercise, socialize with people and sleep properly. Start there.

God bless you my friend. I pray that Christ would embrace you with His peace and empower you with His strength.

 

Hi,
I can't really understand your feeling but i can nearly imagine because i'm also into a form of depression since 2 years but i can mostly control it because i'm selfefficient. My depression was born because of my different way of thinking and seeing life. I do not understand life. But what i've learned is that there is not ONE way of living and no one can understand life. Because we all live for our own self, every body should live like his soul tells him. But insted we try to get a commun way of living and thinking. I believe that is not correct and we should ignore it and stop trying to look alike the other. We have our own dreams, problems, feels.
If you feel unhappy, destroyed, neutral and you can't see yourself on the day of tomorrow and during the future, that is not a problem. That just means you can do what you want, take a break on what people call "life" and do what ever ou want. I recommand you a little trip of meditaion, go with yourself to your favorite place (beach, mountain,sea....) stay there and feel the air and freedom. You will undestand life is not what is shown to us. You will understand our way of living is not worhty of getting power on our death and feeling.

Sorry if i am not clear enought but i have a very poor english and it is difficult for me to express my ideas.

Good luck my brother

 

You gotta make your own life man. You wont stop being depressed until you decide to stop being depressed. Take steps. Not half hearted steps just so you can say you tried. Make radical change in your life. You could be a new person tomorrow if you chose to be.

Who says you cant? Just you.

 

Lots of love to you Ankur. Thinking of you. Always here if you want someone to chat to, just private message me. Seriously, feel free.

 

hey ankur listen,
life is a roller coaster ride and if you are down now, it doesn't mean you won't go up ever. I'm from India as well and I'm coming on the forums after a long time. so, maybe this is a blessing in disguise for you (i have a firm belief in luck).
whenever you feel depressed, you can call me and I'll be more than happy to help you. you are like my brother. if you want, i can give you my contact #.
just remember, time heals almost all wounds.
be positive

 

Bhai ankur mai tujhe itna hi bolunga tension mat le kabhi bhi baat karne Ka man ho toh u can call me my number is 9425510916

 

bhai rone se kuch nahi hone wala.. kuch badalne k liye kuch badalna padhega . . .
Yaad karo bhagat singh , sukhdev , rajguru , khudiram bose ko .. khushi khushi faasi ka fanda chum k shaheed ho gye... !!

 

@Ankur Sharma Would you like some meditation???
Their is this organization Art of Living.They run several courses and one of them is happiness program.
Please join it for your sake. You'll make good friends their. Don't give up brother. If you live in Delhi then I can help you in connecting with Art Of Living people.

 

Read succes stories to learn how they do it...No need to reinvent the wheel.

 

You are always welcome Bhai....

 

"Comparison is the thief of joy" - Teddy Roosevelt.