a couple of questions if someone can answer. about crosdressing.

I started NoFap because I developed erectile disfunction. I have got to be with women and I cannot get it up and then my anxiety amd obsesive mind makes me think about that all the time.
I started crossdressing years ago. And i did it sometimes when i was alone. I stumble dinto sissy porn but stopped because i knew it was bad for me.
So, i got a girlfriend like 2 years ago and i fucked her a lot. She made my dick really hard. And then the thing enden and I stsrte to masturbate again a lot. I did it woth feminization porn amd comics and the oxasional crossdressing.
After that i stooped and tje real problem started. I got a tinder date. And when we were kissing in my car i got hard but when we got to the room i could get it up. This has happened some other times.
Fast forward to recently.
I started living alone and I started crossdressing a lot watching sissy hypno. I started to get crazy and watching ponr seeing myself as the girl and getting fucked and sucking dick. Like i get this rush of exitement with that idea. I have this woman that i met on tinder. She is not hot but she comes to my house and makes me company.
So, I decided after a semi mental breakdown thst i didn't knew whst was I anymore, to stop masturbating, crossdresing and all that. That my dick is going to be only fpr penerltration.
I have achieved stoping 3 days and then I relapse and i do it again. I try no to watch porn at all but I struggle to get exited with just sensations. So i ask this girl to come and she sucks my dick and it kind of makes me hard.
The other day I don't know what happened but i felt like the old days. I took a pill (i cant say the name buy you know, the one that helps with boners) and i got really horny and fucked the shit out of her. But most days i dont seem to get exited. She's always asking me to fuck her so it's kind of a pressure, thinking that i have to do it. But she's is supportive too.
Today I fapped again. Yesterday I got really hard cravings for crossdressing but O didn't do it. But I did start to read about autoginephilia and autoeroticism. I think thst is bad too because O put the idea on my mind.
I woke up at 7 am today and could hold ot anymore.
I binged, and sometimes the thought of me being the girl appeared. I only used twerking videos and girls eating other girls and sensations, but the craving gets hard.
I realize i get 2 problems. I put the idea of me being the girl on my mind and i don't know how to take it out , so any help with that is appreciated. And i can't get a boner masturbating but i do can orgasm and eyaculate. In fact i do eyaculate a lot and can get an erection some of the fapping moments, but just before cumming, and the i cum and its over.
Any help and input is appreciated.

 

Ok, i was going to do that. 90 NoFap at least. Is fucked up. Yesterday I was with a girl and I had to remember sissy porn to ger it hard and afterwards I did fuck her and cummed.
And the thought that Im impotent is fucking my mind because it becomes a cycle.

I hope it works, I'll abstain from everything.