Accountability for All

Hello, I'm new here, but figured now is the best time to join

Just relapsed at 7 days. My 3rd longest streak.

I'm noticing some serious patterns, but I feel like by using NoFap and "learning" each time, it's an excuse for me. When I relapse, it isn't on softer material, I just let the flood gate down and purge. I hate it, I feel so ashamed for about a week, then the urges start ramping up.

Like the last relapse:
- I was feeling lonely
- I was bored
- I wasn't surfing my urge

I haven't been as proactive as my first streak since then. I need to set a routine for both reading the self-help book I am working through, and browsing NoFap as I only visit here when I've relapsed to log it, but instead I'm aiming to be here everyday.

I also need to plan ahead with more people to make sure I'm not feeling lonely and I really need to focus when it comes to surfing urges.

Back to basics... I'm so ashamed and angry, I hate feeling like this. But I feel like I'm making progress.. the voice inside me fights more.

 

Day 32

 

Day 113 in the books!!!

 

Day 5 - Done. This is so fucking tough. The withdrawals manifest into either massive urges, or anxious energy. Both feel horrible, especially when the D is lifeless 1 day, and sensitive the next.

 

I reset recently so I am starting from the beginning feeling bad but it's ok, I can rise again.

 

Wow man, you are doing good hope you will achieve 365.

 

I am 18y/0 doing PMO challenges. I am gonna post every day on this thread. So it's my DAY 0.

 

thanks man! That would be nice!

 

onto day 4

 

Day 1, done.

 

never forget, not matter how long your streak is you are always 1 bad decision from a relapse. Stay strong bro.

 

yezzir! That’s true!!

 

Day 114 in the books!!!

 

Day 33

 

Day 1/90 feels like there is a long journey ahead but somehow I know that it's going to be End someday & I have faith in myself that I can reach my destination with all of you who are giving their best.
I have done many 20/40 day streaks but this time IDK I'm feeling very +ve like I'm gonna do this 90 day easily. But mindset can change, each day it's not going to be the same mindset but let's see.
I'm really happy to see all the people sharing their streak, it motivates me. Hope I'll be here for 90 days and after that also.....be strong never lose HOPE.

A heart for you lovely human being❤

 

Day - 1

 

Good morning all;

Thanks for creating this thread. I believe commiting myself to it is a step in the right direction.

How long do you want this challenge to last?

I intend to stop PMO (Porn, Masturbation and Orgasm) for at least 1 month. The highest I have gone without PMO is 21 days. I relapsed due to life-related stress.

What are your goals?

Short term goals (3 months):

1. To be more spiritual
   
   
2. To go on Monk-mode; No PMO, no girls, no sexual-related activities. No even watching movies with a dint of sexual-related content.
   
   
3. To complete three online courses
   
   
4. To achieve a sizeable financial savings
   

Medium-term goals(1 year):

1. To be more spiritual in-tune. Be a mentor to at least 3 people (in spiritual things)
   
   
2. To go on Monk-mode; No PMO, no girls, no sexual-related activities. No even watching movies with a dint of sexual-related content.
   
   
3. To earn 2 professional certifications (online)
   
   
4. To have gotten a respectable Job with a sizeable income
   

Long-term goals (5 years onward):

1. To have achieved full recovery.
   
   
2. To have achieved Spiritual Maturity
   
   
3. To have made monk-mode a lifestyle
   
   
4. To have gained a respectable level of expertise in my career
   
   
5. To have achieved a certain level of financial security
   

Why are you doing this?

I have lost 10 years of my life being addicted to PMO. Though I finished my first degree in 2011 at the age of 19 (cum laude) and my Masters degree in 2015, I have been fired/quit from 3 jobs, lost 3 relationships and have been rendered bankrupt due to the need to fulfill my sexual urges at all cost.

Now I am 29 and I know that if I don't stop this now, it'll be harder to do so as time passes. I just want my life back. I want to develop admirable self-control and discipline. I want full recovery. I want to be able to look a woman in the eye without feeling ashamed. I want my self-esteem and sense of self-worth back. I want a complete restoration of all I have lost through the years.



I will achieve this God willing...

 

Day 2 - Tough therapy session today addressing why I use PMO. But a streak is not a streak without learning about yourself.

 

god why is there so much porn so easily available?!
i was looking at some memes online and i dont know how, i stumbled upon some meme with a naked girl. closed the tab immediately tho..

im on day 5 btw.