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I'm the only person on this forum with such a deep addiction and severe withdrawal symptoms

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Hero76, Aug 11, 2021.

  1. Aug 11, 2021 #1
    Hero76

    Hero76 Fapstronaut

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    I've been trying to quit my PMO addiction for 2 years now and I've failed thousands of times. Every time I've made any kind of progress after a day or two I fall down flat on my face. If it were my fault that I got addicted in the first place - not really because I'm being abused and PMO is my outlet for escaping the pain. If quitting PMO was the solution then why haven't I still escaped from my abusers? I have withdrawal syndromes so severe I feel like I am dying when I try to quit. Today I relapsed after 1 day and a half of no PMO. During this time I could not sleep all night and all morning so I haven't slept in two days. This happens every time I try to quit. I can't function as an adult with this kind of withdrawal. Am I just wasting my time trying to quit? I have tried replacing this addiction with another addiction - an MMORPG. I found I was just spending more and more time in that virtual world and not living this shitty life. I am out of options. I am considering just ending it. I have no support from anyone, no friends, no family. I am cut off from the outside world. If I try to look for help all people can see is someone with problems. They don't understand me and have zero empathy.
     
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  2. Aug 11, 2021 #2
    Dares Greeneye

    Dares Greeneye Moderator Assistant Staff Member Moderator Assistant

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    Hello :emoji_hand_splayed:
    First of all I want to say that I admire your inner strength to come here and try to find a way even through all the problems you're facing, and I'm glad you did.
    Now concerning insomnia connected to NoPMO; I used to experience the same thing mostly a few years ago when I wasn't used to any kind of streaks at all. The cause in my case was that the energy was building up to the point my body just couldn't rest. Being extremelly horny is just one manifestation of that, but this build up caused by doing NoFap can take some other shapes too, like being neurotic. But in the end, all the negative symptoms of being on a streaks are in the essence just a huge amount of unprocessed energy, because we've been used to just PMO it off for a long time. So you take that and put it into... well, it can be anything what you're working on or you've always wanted to work on really, or some kind of hobby, or relationships. What helped me personally for insomnia and basically made it disappear was exercising. It can be as simple as going for a 20 minutes jog. One can be surprised how much it will improve their mood, how calm they'll suddenly feel, balanced and yet not drained.
    Also talking about jogging; I've heard that it's especially helpful for people dealing with an addiction, because it brings relief from a lot of stress. I'd suggest you trying it at least once to see what it does to you. Maybe you've already done it, I don't know anything about your days of course, just making some suggestions here.
    In any case, don't give up. You got it, this place can be really helpful and if you'll stick around for some time you may find it easier to be on a streak with being in a community like this :emoji_thumbsup:
    Take care! :emoji_v::emoji_slight_smile:
     
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  3. Aug 11, 2021 #3
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    (I'm not English-native speaker so there would be certainly numerous grammatical errors in my comment, sorry for that)

    I have already been in your boots countless times since I discovered NoFap.

    I will share you a list of helpful and supportive posts at the end of/among my comment

    Failing thousand times will not be a big deal if you are brave enough to face your problem and stand on your knees once again.

    I think the big difference between you and me is that I really wanted to change myself, since I started this NoFap journey, I have spent a lot of my time researching about NoFap/YBOP (yourbrainonporn), I started to try to do everything: journal, jogging, dopamine detox, exercise, meditation, reading, playing new musical instrument, build new habits (but I haven't been successful) confess my addiction to my parents (if you have supportive parents, you are definitely luckier than me because they was insulting/blaming me for my own addiction)

    You need to change your lifestyle.

    You need to arm yourself with full arsenal of tools:
    - Porn Blocker: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...ve-your-willpower-an-aid-easy-streaks.272658/
    - Urge Surfing
    - Knowledge
    - Trigger Prevention Plan
    - Relapse Prevention & Reviewing (Self-Reflection) Plan
    - Self-control
    - Emotions Managing Skill
    - Positive Affirmations
    - ...

    You need to figure out what underlying issues you are having.

    Boredom? Loneliness? Isolation? Tiredness? Anger?

    You need to love yourself unconditionally, learn to love yourself more, learn to respect yourself, learn to say "No", learn to manage your time, learn to handle withdrawal symptoms, learn to stick around with your schedule, learn everything helpful for your self-development journey...

    Don't replace this addiction with other addictions, you need to face THE REALITY and raise from THE DARK FANTASY WORLD, you need to realize what things you are consuming and going to consuming good or bad for you physically and mentally, ditch that vicious loop of escaping mechism, dodge all your urges like a greatest boxing champion and focus on punching your opponent's face (your life).

    Sometimes, when you are down sad or not really knowing the way you are walking on a bad or good way or not... Spend that whole day asking for help (online or offline [if you're having supportive people]), brainstorming, questioning and answering yourself (I remember asking myself 100 questions by writing down in my diary, maybe asking questions is a effective way to relieve your stress and finding out your sub-conscious mind)

    Life is a unfair, uncomfortable and hard place to live, but there's always a seed called "Happiness" inside your heart, when you see and recognize that seed really existing, you will be more charming and eventually, you will see this world differently. Life is hard? No matter how hard life is, we are just keep going stronger and stronger, rising up from the bottom of hell, and blooming as a beautiful flower.

    Fighting? What are you fighting for? Discovering a reason by yourself, to find something precious, to be truthfully happy and content, no matter of what reason is, keep crawling and don't give up.

    Rising beyond the sky
    Leaving behind the chasm
    Grasping intensely the infinity
    Blooming inside your palm a lotus
    A lotus of wisdom, love and peace.

    The List of Helpful Posts:
    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/in-case-you-didnt-know.84619/

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/3-fatal-mistakes-rebooters-make.152040/

    https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/guide-what-you-need-to-do-in-order-to-recover-and-end-this-addiction.73277/

    https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/my-top-tips-for-leaving-pmo-behind.35201/

    https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/the-rebooting-toolbox-tips-and-tricks.236156/
     
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  4. Aug 11, 2021 #4
    Aram124

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    If you abused calls 911
     
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