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Checking in!

 

Day 61

 

474 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Just checking in Z Warriors see you later today.

 

Day 8

 

How does edging affect recovery in simple words?

 

Day 22..Past the 3-week milestone and on to the next one

 

I did very well with my goal of a perfectly clean day yesterday.

Two small deviations from a perfect day:
1. Seeing my gf online without a shirt for a bit and mentioning some sexual things.
Didn't escalate but I'd like to not repeat it for the next 2 weeks to give my brain a complete rest before seeing her in person again.
2. Some troublesome neighbors played loud music late into the night.
I woke up in panic/stress filled with extreme sexual thoughts that I don't like and a strong urge to MO.
I M'ed for a few seconds then stopped coming to my senses. That is a bit disappointing, disheartening.

My mind is still turning to PMO as a "solution" to bad feelings or to escape reality. This is addiction damage I haven't reversed yet.
Gabe explains it well:
I need to definitely look hard at my year of effort and reflect. I'll do it in my personal thread.

My goal for today: a perfect clean day 100%.

 

Edging increases the likelihood of relapsing BIG time.

 

There is a lot of knowledge and honesty in this post, Warrior. You will reach your goal and build a new destiny for yourself because of it.

 

First of all, you don't need to be in "full monk mode" if you don't want to. (I'm definitely not there yet!) Do what you need to do to make yourself better. It looks like you already have a discipline. Just keep refining and adapting this to reach the next level of you.

 

Addicition warps the brain so what is actually fake looks cool.

 

I became interested in your posts because I am looking to go on a sort of "monk mode" retreat myself soon. I am getting tired of the Internet (not technology, though) and just want to spend time doing work, exercise, relationships, and meditation...A simpler life... Maybe I'll get there.....

 

Got that month stack of progress!

 

I get what you are saying...and have definitely been there where a funny GIF or meme led me to back to fapping or porn. The thing is, other people aren't doing what you are trying to do. So, it can be difficult to try to stay clean when the world is what it is. Do your best and do not consider your "failures" as weaknesses. They are training. You pack a lot of accountability and knowledge in your posts, which shows your potential as a very strong Warrior. Hold on to that potential with everything you got.

 

Rest is a warrior move. Enjoy!

 

Day 31

 

Monk vs relationship (from a former monk perspective)

Current streak: 474 days no PMO, semen retention

I was a monk, I lived in a monastery, and also I was a voluntary celibate for many years, I had this notion since 10 y.o to be a free man and my happiness needed to be independent from any external source, including girls.

At some point in university I decided to date girls, it wasn’t as bad as I thought and I can say some months with a girl taught me more about myself, than 10 years alone doing meditation.

In Taoism celibacy is considered an advanced practice; they consider that to balance your sexual energy is more difficult while being single.

At the beginning dating girls helped me to balance my sexual energy, also girls have helped me to work on myself, they act as a mirror of your own flaws, they can make you go crazy, angry, lustful if you don’t handle a relationship the right way.

The problem of being alone is that you can simply ignore your own flaws and it won’t matter, with girls is more like being at war you are in the battlefield and if you don’t want to die you need to develop emotional, psychological and energetic strength so you can handle a girl.

As you can see dealing with girls as been more for me a process to help me grow, they are more like a psychological work to me than a pleasure.

Right now I still keep learning from girls, so I keep dating. Maybe later I’ll be back to be alone. Only time and my own evolution will tell.

Conclusion
-See your interactions with girls as a process of self-growth

 

Day 19

 

Day 80, have a great week guys.