Suicide to escape it all

im still after 20 years it is hard to keep going but i do. I have people i dont want to let down and cant leave.

There is good in this world. Watch a movie listen to a song take a walk. Just get away from the phone or a computer and those thoughts.

Mariah carey fantasy might help i have been listening to that song since -free guy- came out.

 

I would really encourage you to reach out and talk to a professional. I know it's hard, but therapy can really help.

Even if your past was stolen, you decide if your future is taken too. It's time to fight. We are all here to help you however we can!

 

Well, for one thing, you're not alone. Ask yourself if it's easier to end it or to sign up to an SAA meeting. Within 24 hours you could be connected to other people who feel the same way you do. It could change everything. Considering the state you're in, what have you got to lose by trying? They do meetings by Zoom now, so you wouldn't even have to leave the house initially.

 

Man what are you talking about you are only 16!!! From age of 6 till 23 i lived a life purely satisfying desire playing games going to parties using all kinds of drugs to escape from a shitty reality! Imagine the time i lost?!?

You realize this now you will have an amazing life!!! Just start following a passion or faith. Dont try to escape reality with porn or other addictions or suicide. If you can do this you are better than 99% of people. What do you want out of life? Follow that and get shit done. Keep trying nofap and one day you will get rid of it while simultaniously advanced in many areas.

Dont lose hope! Get shit done. Even if you feel lifeless like a zimbie just start doing things. You are doing great already realizing this at your age! ENJOY life! Dont focus on your nofap problems...

 

I watched P when I was 13 and started M when I was 14 and Since then I was addicted to PMO. I'm almost 18 now and Kicking this addiction. You can as well, Just Keep Trying, Learning and Keep it Going.

 

Hey man!

I really agree with Tannhauser to seek a professional if you really have these thoughts. Or even (if possible) talk to one of your parents about it. This is not your fault. Remember that. You are born in an era full of technological advances that our evolution of our brain could not catch up with. You are born in a time where you can get every woman with just one swipe on your phone and in combination with puberty that is the perfect formula for isolation at this age. Many boys are like you. But hey, you are different. You actually posting this on this website shows your understanding of a pootential problem quite early, and I really think it predicts good outcome for you. Dont be too harsh on yourself. Quit porn, enjoy the presence of real women, and dont be too perfectionistic about this. Good times will come. Negative emotional states are temporary. If you could do one small thing tomorrow, that would make your life just a little bit better, even something really small, what would that be? Try doing that tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after. And these good times will be there sooner than you think

Btw, I was at your place some years ago, but managed to get into a very nice and sexually pleasent relationship either way. My key was do make right decisions in life, and to not be too hard on myself!

 

Hey, this trick will free you 100% from porn forever.

Just do this trick and you'll remain porn-free forever. It works .

You have strong urges coming from time to time?

Easy, just think about how big your libido will be after 3 months and preserve that urge to make it big and more big so you can enjoy more and more when you relapse after 3 months,

but

After 3 months of resisting urges, you will then have to choose between 2 options:

Option1: Release the sexual urge from your ripristinated libido to Porn
or
Option2: Forget about porn and preserve the sexual energy for real sex.

Even if you choose option 1, you have made 3 months of no PMO and you gained a lot of progress, do the next thing again for the 3 months next to come.
Also, after 3 months you most likely won't even do PMO since you know the consequences and you wouldn't care about it, you'd rather preserve that energy for actual sex.

As I said, this method works!

 

It's hard now. I know. It's hard for me too. I think about suicide a lot. But hey - life's worth it

 

You are never alone. We're all here struggling with the same thing.

I don't think I was even trying to quit when I was 16. At 26 I probably was trying but probably still MO-ing at least once a day, and going through many phases of including P too.

I wish I had tried to quit at 13 or 16. My life could be so much different. You still have plenty of chances to improve yours. Yes, I'm currently on a good streak, but getting here took time, patience and many, many failures.

Suicide is never the answer. If you are being serious about considering this, please reach out for help first: http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/international-suicide-hotlines.html

 

Hey @isolate134 how are you doing?

 

Do meditation, it will take out trash from the brain and you'll start to feel stable and better.
I also had the same case.

 

What’s your dad like?

 

@isolate134 13-16 Wow, your internal life is changing so much even if you don't realise it. I am decades older than you and I'm still changing my life for the better because there is lots more of it to be lived, this is twice as true for you. Be alive today for the person you will become tomorrow. You are here and want to change, that's all you need. One of the most mature things you can do at any stage of life is recognise when you need help. Have a google find a good organisation to reach out too, there will be no judgment or shame, there will be people who want to help you. If you feel comfortable doing so say which country you are in and people here will help you find someone to contact. I know it's hard to believe when you feel like you do at the moment but things can change and be better than they are right now.

 

I would recommend signing up for a local SAA meeting it saved my life for sure just having people you can talk in person about similar problems .

 

Whats SAA, can you explain.

 

Support group listings here. If you are having such dark thoughts.

Search sa org not got big enough rep to post a link!

 

You are way too young to consider suicide. You have your life in front of you. If someone can have hope, you can!

 

How can i join....this addiction is killing me....pls tell me how can i join....

 

Type "SAA meetings" into whatever search engine you like, and it'll come up with a list of websites. The search engine should show you sites that have meetings in your area, but if it doesn't, you can type the name of your city or town into the search. Then, click on the site that seems best, and find out when and where they have meetings. If you don't like the first site or it doesn't have meetings you can get to, try another one. Then sign up for a meeting and go. It's simple, and they have 2 or 3 meetings every week. You're less than a week away from big changes!