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Day 24

I'm feeling better and stronger everyday.

I'm taking a mental health therapy that should last for a week. Truly, I'm glad that this is helping me alot. I confessed to them that I'm battling against PMO addiction, and they all got to say that I'm very brave to let it out and they were proud of me.

I even got to confess to my mom about it too. I'm also glad that she never got angry or upset with me about it, rather she told me that felt proud of me for my honesty and that I'm brave. She also told me that she's always there to support me no matter what.

I've never felt more relieved in my life. I just didn't wanna keep hiding it anymore. This is one step to be productive and to claim my freedom from PMO.

 

479 SR
Important choice regarding girl

My father just told me

“ investigating and analyzing some many women, our connection with them, their egos , their mental and emotional disorders… when you interact with them in a way we assimilate, at least connect in a mental level with them, but in more deep levels too, because we have to please, tolerate them, not saying a word that can upset them, we get too deep in their energy and psyche… this reduces our level for many spiritual endeavors, we feel handcuffed, leaving away our originality and “freedom” that we need so much to explore and walk in the inner and spiritual world, delaying our evolution.

Our brain waves synchronize to our partner to have a better understanding and communication, this affects big time a mind that wants to elevate to more superior fields of consciousness.”

After listening to my father I’m going to become even more picky choosing girls, it is very hard to find a girl with a mind that is not so out of place and negative, I can almost say I haven’t met a women with a calm mind that really is not an effort to interact with, I have met thousands of girls, in general women’s egos are heavy and hard to deal with.

 

Gym Girl
The girl I was seeing at the gym, the one that we decided two days ago to be just friends, she was talking to me yesterday telling me she was angry at me, that I just vanished from earth, she wanted us to be still as close as when we were dating, for me to spend that much time with her without a romantic involvement.

I was getting tired of this attitude you cannot have a man to treat you like a girlfriend if are not one, I have to tell her because it was getting out of hand, I’m not going to spend my precious time with a girl I don’t have a romantic involvement so she can haven an emotional support from me while she is dating other men. I think she got it and is gone for good.

 

Checking in Saiyans!

284 days free of porn and 212 days free of MO!

I noticed an increase in some anxious related tension, probably from the sleep disturbances from last night. The recurring symptoms are really losing their strength when they return, I know I'm healing. This makes me very happy.

I had a productive day so far, I did my daily stretch and meditation. I also committed a good hour and a half to reviewing and taking notes in relation to nofap , semen retention and general self-improvement. I highly suggest you do the same, it has been key in my recovery. It's also important not to become complacent, you must always remind yourself why you're doing this and the cost of engaging in fantasy or pmo. The neuropathways of addiction do remain, dormant and weakened, but they remain. It's important to remind yourself every now and then why you are doing this, or else you will fallback into old patterns when facing an urge. Adopting a 0 tolerance approach will free you from the habit.

Enjoy the weekend my friends!

 

Day21
Urges are strong because on the weekends I have nothing to do but they won't get the best of me I promised
Ate healthy
Gonna exercise and train after this
See you tomorrow Z Warriors!!!

 

Checking in, keep up the good work!

 

Day 67

 

Day 37

 

Checking in Z warriors See you later today!!!

 

Day 28...Less than 48 hours from that monthly milestone

 

Tap into your power of choice. Nothing can stop a Warrior who chooses their destiny...

 

Reflection is powerful. Despite my own focus on reflection and journaling, I can't sometimes get so bold that I think that I'm "finished" with the addiction and end up falling right back in.

 

480 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 174. My longest streak before was 185 days. I'm almost back. Working towards that next power level!

 

480 days SR
51 days no sex

No more girls, then a new girl appears
When I broke up with my last girlfriend almost two months ago the next day I met a beautiful girl who approached me first, I broke up with this beautiful girl too this week then a girl I know and like a lot just texted me yesterday.
I used to think is coincidence but I believe my energy simply becomes open to meet with new girls, it seems women can sense this and approach to me again. But I also believe I’ve been plain lucky this last months, nothing is more easy for forgetting a girl than having a new girl, and it just happens I meet a new girl right after I broke up with the last one.

This girl just texted me yesterday, we randomly write to each other emojis, just emojis kind of teasing each other in a naïve and fun way. But yesterday we talked a bit, she is only 20 years old, she is very attractive, the thing is she lives like 2-3 hours away from me, that is why I never tried anything with her.
Yesterday she told me she got done a little of liposuction on her waist, I mean she is already stunning I didn’t see the need for the surgery but damn now she is super-hot. I told her if it is painful? She told me it is, especially the massages. I was just talking friendly with her, and then she told me:

-Can I ask you something- she said
- Sure- I replied
- Why I always want to have sex?

I mean what type of question is that haha. I told her if it is only after surgery or all the time she is like this. I already knew she likes sex a lot, but I told her surgery is a stressful event and sex is a stress reliever and I offered myself to calm her suffering haha. She agreed.

Then we talked about tantric sex, how it can improve your health and pleasure as a women, I can’t believe this has work so many times, even do I simply talk about it, women really seem interested in tantra when I mention it. This girl hasn’t had sex in many months, she is not slutty so probably I’ll have to talk to her a bit more, maybe even a relationship to have sex. Also who knows how she wakes up today, maybe she changed her mind during sleep, girls change their minds a lot and easily. Also I’m not a big fan of traveling, so long term is not a possibility, but we are kind of like friends and sure sex will help her to relieve some of the post-surgery pain and also calm the need to have sex. So I’m a bit open to it if she wants to do it, I also like her energy and personality, lets see how this continues. Right now, I’m going to try talking a bit with her something not sex related and if she feels like talking about sex again or wants to do it, I’m ready for the battle, always aware ,opportunities happen when you least expected so always be ready.

 

I failed and have started again from 0.
Here is the full report: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...mmunity-on-my-side.288245/page-4#post-3101285
I am keeping accountable and finding ways to incrementally improve. I will adopt a 0 tolerance policy as well.

 

Unbelievable bravery. Congratulations fellow Sayian!