The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I'm on to day 8!! I'm buying that fountain pen!

Last night I was researching all these different fountain pens and I think I found the one that I'm going to buy. Super stoked. It shall be a secret reminder to me that I am capable of making it seven days and also of the pain I went through with all the relapses of the past couple of months just trying to get through seven days.

Of course, now I must be very wary to not get complacent. I don't want to struggle through the seven days again. I had some terrible dreams last night that worries me. They weren't wet dreams but still. I must be on guard.

 

I think you will soon find it for yourself. If you can stop it and keep going clean you keep your streak, but usually it works like a Morgul blade when you gradually turning into Nazgul. hope you'll find some elvish medicine and make it to the light.

 

I am in to the challenge, may it be an evening star with the 1st day to begin!

 

Today's P post almost tipped me over the edge one of the girls in the gifs was one that I usually used to watch to and was almost addicted to her, I did indeed open the site (you know...) but my rational mind started thinking, thankfully I love science I love to learn why and how we do things how mechanisms work in short I am a super duper curious being and 3 minutes into the video I started researching about how are mind works the effects of P on our mind what happens if we don't do PMO for long started reading some research paper on religious beliefs vs modern science etc., Not only thatI started thinking of how bad I wod feel if I would have to then tell that I relapsed, personally I want to become a person that people look up to and If I only fally what would happen, also a special mention for giving me such strength was @Slider8,(he is an amazing guy not only did he make me more accountable but also help me become a better man, I owe you man and I hope you can be of help to you if you ever need it yourself ) And I made my mind that I would prefer to not take the risk of going through that pain as already I have my exam in 2 days and I have 80+ days of streak in my first attempt which I feel is not very common (do let me know!) and so I closed the vdeo and started studying but today was the closest ever encounter of mine with P after joining Nofap and I hope it will be the last.

 

Will do so!

 

The question you asked is a scenario to being attracted to fire, if you are attracted to a flame what would you do?
Of course you would run right! Not go into to fight your demons head on? The same can be said for PMO it's just like fire you run towards it head on it will engulf you in its flames like a fire and as I know you are in that flame currently (I have read your post of relapse) just like you put water to stop the fire now you would need a cool and calm mind with which you have to find the answer to question of what triggered you and what all you can do to prevent another relapse and hey don't If you are not doing it well and good but if you are then please stop bashing yourself up for the relapse studies have proven self negative talk not only harms you emotionaly but also physically!
And remember "You believe you can or you believe you can't you are right" ~Henry Ford

 

Welcome to the challenge brother !

 

Fantastic that you finally reached your one week mark, congratulations

 

Day 12

 

Quick check in. Back to school. Class went great.

Up early this morning, cold shower, prayer. Too much time on twitter, though. Still need to meditate.

 

Great idea!

Just a thought: „addiction is the opposite of connection“ describes the social side of addiction. Psychological I would say it is peace of mind. A tranquil peaceful mind can beat cravings and all hardships that come from having that addiction and going through recovery.

Have I come further or have I been thrown back? Time will tell

 

Once again I have misstepped, and have to reset my counter. For some reason, my will is weakened at around day 30 and there must be some way to pass that wall once again. I am starting to study the wisdom of King Solomon & Co, which I hope will give me further insight and strength to overcome the entities/events making their way into my soul/body.

 

Day 10! This is the day I relapsed on my last streak. Feeling stronger and more confident this time around. I'm starting to feel some energy building inside, even though I increased my exercise. I hope I'll be able find some positive outlets for that.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

Day 287 free of Porn and Day 215 free of MO!

Today was a difficult day, not in terms of urges, but in terms of tension/stress. A sensation that I loath and it takes its toll. The lack of adequate sleep over the last 3 days is the cause. I hope it will pass soon and I hope I will sleep better tonight, but as any other feeling..nothing is permanent.

I hope you all had a great day!

 

Oh look day 28. Two more days before I become a tall hobbit.

 

Day 190

 

400 days

Thnx mate

 

Congratulatiooooons!!

 

Day 2 complete! Got pretty close to falling today, but all I could think about was how short this streak is, and how disgusted I would be with myself if I broke it already. The classic techniques helped me pull through--getting up from my desk, going for a walk, grabbing a drink of water. Getting in motion and giving my brain something else to focus on.

 

I'll try to keep this in mind. It's very compulsive. I'm often very nervous and uncomfortable around women. Made it to day 32 at least.