I did the right decision, didn't I ? [ UPDATED ! ]

The Chemicals and the Hormones are hard to get by after that stupid conversation of yesterday with my uncle.

I didn't even ask him for this crap to begin with...never ever mentioned something like this, It was always mutual respect.

I felt okay only during sleep, I hate this Topic seriously, It gets me through some hard emotional challenge.

I don't know, But I feel like if I'm a Handicapped ugly person in their eyes.

I'll leave their house once I'll finish studies and finish one year of NoFAP, I don't feel conftable anymore being there...

It's an Emotional Pain... He brought a very hard topic, That I tried to evade gor years, Now he asked me to enjoy it as if i'm missing something that everybody does!

I swear on the spirit of my parents that i will surpase him financially in all aspects, I took it personal somehow...

I was raise to be at this state! I could've gonna 10x better than this lifestyle - Jobless for now due to Education...

I prefer to go on the Lone Wolf Journey till achieving success, I lost a woman that once loved me unconditionally - whcih was my mother God Rest her Soul...

I'm really waiting to finish University and NoFap Year, I'll surprise the men in my family, It's an Insult to me, really it is!

To me a Man, Who isn't Financial Free - Shouldn't taste sexuality at all costs, It only creates Beta Male - This was like asking me to go back to PMO only this time on the 3D level, Fuck it! I'm not taking that road...

Still waiting for my mind to calm down... He made it look as if i'm missing an opportunity and that he just known a hot pro******, I don't even want to pronounce that word - It disgust me.

Thank you guys for all your support, It's hard to make such decision when you never had sex at 28 years old.

I'll break free from this Financial Issue - I'm thirty as hell, School wasted a lots of my time!

 

I have a headache on my left back side, I guess it was due to over rhinking about this, It's uncontrollable...

I've felt the same thing back in 2018, 4 years ago - I was mocked by my Teacher in class due to this, I remember cutting off studying at his class afterwards. - He mocked and shamed you after asking you - Have you slept with someone before ? In front of everybody - I felt really really uncomftable. I remember him asking a girl if she ever saw a man mya ge who's still a virgin and she said no...

I blovked him from my life and moved on, I got accepted in one of the prestigious university in my country, everything went well. I never partied there and never did anything wrong at all - My Father Planned and I followed the plan right through! Go study - Means go study! I slash them all when it comes to this. I was a Topper, But I feel like i've took the wrong road following his strategy...

Anyways, Now I really don't want to talk to my Uncle anymore, I hangoff pretty soon when ever he calls me, I don't want to speak to him anymore.

Normally, I block everyone who is not an Honest good Friend, Who helps me improve and move on in life.

NoFap Forums and all the Members in here are Good Guys, They help each other to move forward and improve themselves.

I don't like talking to him anymore... The Topic itself hurts me, because it's a personal attack on my ego, To me success is my priority - nothing nothing comes infront of it.

 

True, I hate it when someone compare to themselves, It really really drains me Psychologically... I don't feel comftable anymore.

I just want to Finish this studies for good and just leave snd go do something else...

I followed the wrong path, I regret it...

I can't resist the mockery... I strave to be number#1. Not two number one.

I felt uncomftable after that topic... I don't know how can i be normal again... My psychic have gone really bad. I'm waiting to be normal again to go for studies, only 7 days between me and this exam.

I want to finish off and move on with my life... This will be my first step to freedom.

 

To be honest with you, It help me personal understand how Money works within society and how Marketing and Sells Works.

I want to start my own business, this helped me see the unseen, I know it's hard but at least I have the Business Mindset althohgh it is all in theory, but still i can analyze the real world, I'm waiting to break free from studies.

 

Thanks my friend, At least talking to you guys a person get through his loneliness and sadness, thanks a lot.

 

Aaaand.... We Argued and we fought over that Topic!

He called me sick and unsteable and incel and everything, he claimed that its natural to bang every chick you see, I calmly replied it's just Sex Addiction - No less or more, And That I'm on the Phase of Building myself up, and that i thank God gor quieting PMO.

Man, What the **ck.... - Damn, I couldn't convince him that - that road has no good ending, and it will lead to some crazy STD along the way....

But whatever...I'll focus on building myself and moving forward toward a better lovely future! Monk Mode! - NOFAP!

Although, I'm against prostitues Job! But I won't feel okay using a woman as a sex object because she has to pay for her mother's cancer bill or daughter horrific sickness...

I'm a Human, I'll remain that way, that is my Moral Code.

Some crazy mentally unstable prostitutes, might infect you with HIV on purpose, by breaking thr Condom, You wouldn't even know....

Man....

 

He blocked me from all his social mwdia and decided not to talk to me anymore, everybody in my family blame me, even my ants calling me Incel and stuffand blaming NOFAP Journey as it js something out of our culture....

I guess I was going to Regret Both Endings.

1) If i choosed to go with that hot chick he claimed, I'll regret the NOFAP Journey for breaking almost a year of recovery and trading an addiction for a new one.

2) Now that I choosed to remain on NOFAP, I'll regret being 28 and not having any experience so far...


Regret is in both decisions...

 

My Family ( Uncle - Ants... ) They all Mock on me and my NOFAP Journey.... It's really a bad thing coming from them...
I live within an Open Minded Family, But still they see me as unnormal person for staying on NO SEX all these years.

I know myself very well, If I go down this road of Prostitutes, I'm long gone for 10 years or so... I might stay there forever...

Even my Father ( R.I.P ) once joked on me with one of his wives, He had 4 wives - and many sex partners - He lost his virginity at 14...

No comparison to him whatsoever, He left me behind him for miles....

Alright, After a successful year of NOFAP for a year - What's next ?? I can't go NO SEX forever...

 

They knew about my PORN addiction, They know about my NOFAP Journey, I did told them! Only my Mother's ( Family ).

My Father was a different man... A total conservative person, you can't dare to mention girls infront of him!

He had 4 Wives at once and many Partners according to stories, I heard from another one of his Ex Wives. He was a very good person I admire him so much, He was a true Inspiration! But he showed me many things...

The only things i regret is him not telling me - How to make wealth and How to deal with women.

Some people came to him asking him for help to see if their future wife will fit just by the look at her and analyzing her, he was extremely - Talented at that!

Sadlly, We never talked openly about it, he was too conservative too much... But he mocked me on his back especially when it comes to this topic. But at the end he knew I was a Soldier - I can make it whenever i go! And not fail for stupid mistakes, It is this thing that headmired in me.

I admire him and I had the Honor to be his son.

Our kind of Father hood is similar to the Famous Videogame serie Metal Gear Solid - The Relationship between Solid Snake the Son and His Father Big Boss.

My Avatar is also an Image of Solid Snake.

 

If you're talking about losing virginity, It really depends on someone's personality and environment:

If you are surrended with older men who always bring hot prostitute to your house, I bet you'll enjoy it and lose it at 11 or 12 - And you'll joke on all people afterwards!

Sex is very easy.

Similarly, If you are surrended with Open Minded Mom and Father, They'll allow you to bring Girls to your Room at your House, Explain to me How it's impossible to lose your virginity ???

When we judge someone who's still a virgin at a certain age, You must go through his whole life's story, and believe me there is a decent reason why they never had a chance....

I grow between two weird Families, My Father's was Islamic - Total Conservative, Although he enjoyed his sexual life to the fullist! But us - His sons we can go to hell in this topic.

On the other hand my mother's family is pretty crazy, everybody speaking in a cursing language, everybody is having fun and it's okay if i speak about Porn - Prostitution infront of them...(Only my Ants though )

I respeft my uncles too, but they seem to see me in a petty eye, they know something is wrong with me. They know it... I can go on and say Yes! I need to enjoy myself sometimes! Simply because it's pretty crazy and unsettling! I felt threatned when he brought the Topic!

It's a fucked world in where i live, everybody does this! But still it is a Taboo.

My brain is going nuts!