THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Keep marching, but also be cautious. Stray thoughts can catch you at vulnerable times (angry, sad, bored, or lonely, etc.)

 

Appreciate it...It's been a journey

Continue onward, Warrior! You've got more legacy to build

 

Day 31

 

I actually have been reading about this in "Leader Without a Title" by Robin Sharma. First, we all battle impatience, so you are unique in that experience. Second, what is unique is where you are now. (Even if you reached this milestone before, every time you reach it, it's different) You are building a new life, figuring things out based on where you are now, so I would encourage you to focus on what you're building not the subtle suggestion that you need to be "done". There is no "done". We keep evolving.

My advice: Get clear on what you want in the future. Break that down to actions you can do today to stay present so you can create that future.

We don't know the future and you'll be a different person anyway, so why not start creating?

PS Besides all of the philosophy crap I was writing, you hit above 200+ days, THAT IS FREAKING AWESOME

 

Day 36!

 

Day 43

 

I edged for a little bit (1-2 minutes) but managed to gain awareness and stop.
I want to work on some upsetting thoughts today (CBT exercises) and I was feeling stressed about it without noticing. In the shower I masturbated for a bit before snapping out of it.
I remembered that this behavior significantly increases the chance of relapse (thanks @darkenedverse) and I realized I was trying to escape my negative emotions in fantasy and masturbation.
I am writing this in the aftermath to keep my insights, solidify the detrimental effect of such activity in my mind and keep accountable.

Practical tip: Since the shower is a place where I am more likely to fail, I'll have very quick, conscious showers and be out of there ASAP.

On a more theoretical level, these videos helped my understanding of what's going on.

 

Day 28
No Urges
Gonna work out after this
Ate some Calamarata
Good day so far see you tomorrow Z Warriors!!!

 

An old love
Another ex texted me last night. I would say she is the best sex I ever hard in terms of pleasure, she was very skillful, she could last hours making love, she had one orgasm after the other nonstop and she agreed to do anything I could think of. Very few girls (only two in my all life including her) were able to keep up with me during sex, but she was able, she was also very loving and easy going. But she had a lot of problems in her life, so I had to let her go.

She blocked me for no reason, some weeks ago. This is the 4rd ex that has texted me this week. Usually girls sense when you are totally over them, it is like they have a 6th sense for it. I think it is because I’m putting my focus on the new girl I just met 3 days ago. She seems nice and she is starting to open up to me. But anything can change, girls change too much. But for the time being, it is kind of good. I never get tired of girls to be honest, I’m quite optimistic about it, even if I haven’t met the one, it’s been a fun road that has giving me a lot of teachings.

 

Relapsed again someone help please
Day 0

 

Day 74

 

Checking in!

 

487 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Starting over.
Day 0!

 

Day 44

 

5th week(Day 35)...Momentary urges cannot distract me from what I'm building

 

Day 32