Accountability for All

day 14

 

Day 6 (again)

Realizing I was counting the day I relapsed as day 1. So i'm repeating that day. No shortcuts.

Man today is rough. Feeling stressed and PMO has always been my stress release. Tough as I'm trying not to just go on auto-pilot too much in general. PMO, watching Dota vods, reddit have always been a crutch just to zone out, but when i'm done I don't feel more well rested. Replacing that stuff with more positive activities like reading and being outside. It's beautiful outside so I'll probably try to spend most the day outside once I'm done with work. The stress will pass as it always does, if I don't worry about it too much.

Hope everyone is well,

 

its like i ejaculate once in every ten days, it is very annoying. i just want this to stop.

 

man day 3 ive already surpassed the f3d barrier feeling great

 

Day 32

 

Tomorrow is a new day.

 

Day 8
I had sex with my gf. It was very exciting at the beggining but i came very fast and she felt pain. I want to contr myself and dont hurt her
Second time I hardly menaged to get my p up. But it was better she had some fun.
I think it might be some symptoms od PIED
I stop treating sex so objectively. I hate that i started joking after it. I just want to be close to her and trust her and respect her and she wants the same from me.

 

I remember my first time with my GF it wasnt great either haha. It will get a lot better trust me. As for your p not getting up. It could be various factors like nervousness or most probably porn induced ED

 

Day 0

There's a long time a don't come here. Anyway, I've been losing quite a lot since I hit the streak of 23 days. And now my addiction is getting worse than ever. I'm not watching porn, I usually lose because of photos, but, my anxiety, overthinking and stress got massive.

I use to be quite productive, but now I waste probably 2-4 hours a day with those problems. This is definitely my lowest point in life.

But, heroes are built in very difficult situations, Batman lost his parents, Superman lost his entire family, The Rock was arrested multiple times (9 I think) before he became one of the biggest actors in the world and Nelson Mandela was arrested for 27 years and still, even Will smith thinks this guy was a badass.

So, I believe that good gives everybody the opportunity to be great by giving them tests, very difficult situations in their lives so that they use that to be badass.

And this is my opportunity to be my best self. I'm scared but also excited.

 

Day 135 in the books!!!

 

Day 1 - I'm back

 

Day 0
Yesterday i relapsed. I hope i Will learn from it...

 

relapsed on day 6 today

 

It's good that you're opening about your s#x life and all but here we are so many of us doing the HARD MODE PMO, so we may feel lil uncomfortable hearing about s#x. It can create urges You know that???? Right

So it's a humble request don't talk about having s#x.

 

Day 16.
Hope y'all doing good...❤

 

Day 7. Finally I was able to complete a week succesfully after so many relpases and I want to continue this streak. Currently I am having some anxiety issues for studying but I will fight till the end.

 

Day 136 in the books!!!

 

Day 7.

Man latter part of today was hell. I spent most the day outside, but eventually came back home. When I got home, my brain was just fiending for something dopamine-inducing. Like, a combination of porn cravings + just wanting to be out of my head for a bit. Trying not to indulge in drugs or alcohol or watch endless youtube videos if I can help it. Been reading, meditating, but shit I can't do that forever. I'm at a loss of what to do sometimes. What do you guys do to distract that's not just binging something? (This is when I'm not working btw - i'm a freelancer so my free time comes in waves)

 

Day 15!

 

Day 17 in the books. Stressful day