Road to 1500+ days in Jesus strenght

Alright, guys! So just figured out that I want to reach like 1530 days since been reading on here that every year of addiction needs 2 months of staying clean(25 years=50 months).
Right now at about 831 days since started exactly before the start of summer 2 years ago.

So day 831 - today woke up at 5 am and didn't want to read Bible since read it so much last 2 days, so this moorning did read only a little and couldn't focus. Went to PC and browsed the web for hours and had real strong urges, mostly because skipped 2 showers - one before going to sleep and one after waking up. I felt almost like pmo is an option, sure mind was not clean because of heightened sex drive after skipping showers and giving less time to Christian life. Also played LoL and pretty much wasted like 6 hours of time despite having to work to do at the family garden and errands in city. Most days are easy and almost no urges.

From this day I remembered that the start of the day is very important and investment in today starts already in the previous day. Also, life is in the movement and God's Word is medicine to the whole body since it lifts up the mood and puts us higher in healthy level thinking.

God bless your souls.

 

Guess that info about 2 months original came from YourBrainOnporn website.
You sure have a way to go but time goes fast.

Yeah, relapsed many times before because of video games, before started believing in God. It's kind of addiction too, but now avoiding it today to do anger since it can easily add to negative emotions. There are 3 ways to hell - lust, anger, and greed.

 

So day 835.
Yesterday played a bit of league for like 20 minutes and almost got sick before in a room I played window was open and cold air was coming in.
Despite that God allowed me to play in a way that I had a free choice because when God don't allow then the laptop keyboard doesn't work at all.
Today not playing at all because enough of mental masturbation since today two verses opened my eyes wider -
"Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour."

"Therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil."

 

Day 836.
Today was pretty good. Not playing yesterday paid off in resulting with prayer before sleep and it was easier to wake up earlier despite going to sleep late(Prayed God to refresh me during the night).

No urges at all for the last two days ,except wanting to play league.

Today these two verses spoke strongly because feels like something big is going to happen in spiritual realm and in my country -
John 16:33
These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.”
Psalm 34:19
Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them all.

 

Day 837.
Today realized that I was building with one hand and destroying with another hand. Reading Bible and praying brings me closer to God but playing heroin video games was distancing me from God. Now these days tried to listen to God more with heart not ears - doing what feels right in heart and not doing what feels wrong. Spending more time with God does awaken consciousness from the dead to alive.

 

There was a poster on here called Mateo, who came up with the 2 months for every year of the addiction, referencing a video from a doctor.

Thread is called "ANSWERED - How long will my reboot take?"

 

For intelligent minds, it's less interesting. But to people with a weaker sense of reality pixels can give excitement and a fake sense of achievement or sense of community. To some it's escapism. Been hearing that some people who met in a game even started to live together. In the end, those games are built to carry away. PS1 is pretty light drugs compared to what they have these days. But most games have in common that it's possible to use real-life debit cards in them.

 

Long story short, the girl I dated convinced me to visit a church with her cause she wanted me to spend more time with her. There was a lot of young positive people who was very nice to me and I just lost all my old friends because they kept supporting pmo, but I was on a 270+day streak. Then the relationship with the girl died and I decided to give myself all to God to fill up the emptiness. And it really helped because with a girl I sinned a lot before marriage and she was not believing in God and Jesus and was bringing my faith down because she was an authority to me. I gained new friends and places to go after work and a lot of fun events and good food was part of it. That was drawn me in until I started to believe enough to have my own strong faith.

I don't suggest judaism. Christianity is so much more popular and more modern, that you would have much bigger opportunities.

 

Word Christian came from word disciple and it means student, follower, later from time after Christ was born again. Jesus said in Luke 14 these verses -

26 If any man cometh to me [If any man come to me], and hateth(love more Jesus than anything else) not his father, and mother, and wife, and sons, and brethren, and sisters, and yet [forsooth] his own life, he may not be my disciple.
27 And he that beareth not his cross, and cometh after me, may not be my disciple.
28 For who of you willing to build a tower, whether he sit not first/whether he first sitteth not, and counteth the expenses that be needful, if he have to perform?
29 Lest after that he hath set the foundament [Lest after he hath put the foundament], and be not able to perform, all that see, begin to scorn him,
30 and say [saying], For this man began to build, and might not make an end.
31 Or what king that will go to do a battle against another king, whether he sitteth not first, and bethinketh, if he may with ten thousand go to meet him that cometh against him with twenty thousand? [+Or what king to going to make battle against another king, whether he sitting first bethinketh not, if he may with ten thousand go against him that cometh to him with twenty thousand?]
32 [Or] Else yet while he is afar, he sendeth a messenger, and prayeth those things that be of peace.
33 So therefore each of you, that forsaketh not all things that he hath [that renounceth not, or forsaketh not, all things that he wieldeth], may not be my disciple.
34 Salt is good; but if salt [shall] vanish, in what thing shall it be savoured?
35 Neither in earth, nor in [the] dunghill it is profitable, but it shall be cast out. He that hath ears of hearing, hear he.

If you think that reading Bible is bad then satan have deceived you cause he wants us never o read it. I mean how would you know what God and Jesus want from you if you donnt read what they have said and what they did. Bible is about love and relationship with God and people.

 

I understand that you are disappointed in Christians and I agree that 99% Christians are not following Bible as they should. But not everyone who calls himself Christian is one because in Luke 14. Jesus said what is the cost and most people who think they are Christians cant pay that price. That's why Jesus' followers shrank from thousands only to 12 when time came to drink Christ's blood and be Christ's bride. This movie explains it pretty well, the meaning of Blood and marriage, being the Christ bride -
http://kurmislv.info/kristigie-video/kristigas-filmas/1114-before-the-wrath-2020

 

Дружище, тебе не хватает одной Библии для духовного роста. Я из России и ангелы поведали мне о скором пришествии Иисуса Христа. Нужно хранить свои одежды чистыми. Ты забываешь про демонов , которые мешают. У нас в православной церкви для этого есть причастие , но в протестантизме нет этого. Ты должен бросить все игры , это от сатаны. Я сам играл 5 лет в шахматы. Сатана крал время. Посмотри мое свидетельство https://spiritreports.blogspot.com/2021/01/egor-kamatael-of-russia.html?m=1

 

Read Matthew 25 if you want to see Christ brides. Also, Jesus mentioned many times parables where He is Groom.

I mean look at Holy Dinner. It itself is a ritual of marriage. Christ Blood is a covenant of marriage. It all is explained in that movie because it was those times Hebrew tradition of marriage. That's why only 12 followers left after He offered to drink wine from a cup. Not just because it was a blood covenant but also because it was a marriage covenant.
Also, Bible talks about the spotless bride. Jesus don't know when the Father will come - just like Groom don't know when the Father will come to tell Groom to go get His bride. Too much to explain here but all is explained in the movie.

 

Thanks for advice. I just deleted all games.
But it seems like you are too much concentrating on the dark side rather than Light.