Finally... made it to 30 days.

Hello everyone

Finally managed to make it to 30 days hard mode(no pmo,no touching, nothing sexual) after about 1.5 years of trying to quit this addiction. This streak came after one of the worst periods of my life because of this addiction where i gave up on ever having a wife, kids, family, gave up on starting my own company, gave up on myself.... I gave up on everything. I was having extreme mood swings(from all the messed up, sick, and disgusting porn i have watched)and was triggered by pretty much everything, i thaught that was it, my life is over(i had suicidal thaughts every day). But i still had some hope and fight in me so i decided to keep trying to beat this addiction and finally made it to 30 days(my best streak up till now was 24 days more than half a year ago).

Now i feel much better, i again have the will to live and want to make myself a better person and have a family. My mood swings are much more manageable and less intense(i was triggered yesterday and was able to shrug it off), the things that i was sensetive to bother me much less now, my depression is not as bad anymore(in the last month i had suicidal thaughts only 2 times). I look at girls with much more respect and don't see them as just sexual objects anymore. Girls are much more atractive to me now(pretty much every girl i see is beautiful to me now). I am getting morning wood much more often now, i am much more confident and when i look at myself in the mirror i think i am better looking than i was before(if that makes sense).

I still have some issues in my head from porn and i am still not ready to be in a realtionship so i will give myself more time for that, and work on myself to be a better person.

Here are some tips that helped me:
1. Make small goals(from my expirience you are more likely to relapse if you set big goals like 90 days in the beginning, so set small goals like 3 or 5 days at a time)
2. Don't use social media(it is full off triggeres)
3. Don't use phone in bed at night(this is how almost all my relapses happend)
4. Don't try to fight urges(just leave them alone and they will go away after some time or just do push ups or take cold showers, fighting them will only make them stronger)
5. Install blockers(i use blockers so that i don't accidentaly find porn while surfing the net, keep in mind that without willpower and self control blockers are useless)
6. Don't check out girls until you have enough self control(when you have enough self control go and meet and talk to girls, don't let porn mess up your view on girls like it did to me)
7. Just don't care about pmo(if you find something sexual online just close the page and say to yourself that isn't my life anymore and i don't care about it anymore try to make it second nature)

I probably forgot some tips(these are just the tips that come to mind) but i hope they will help some people in fighting this evil. Stay strong don't lose hope and you can do it, I wish everyone good luck on beating this addiction

Sorry for any mistakes english isn't my mother language.

 

Thanks, at times i thought it was impossible for me to reach 30 days but i finally made it, my next goal is 40 days.

Good luck to you.