The hentai way

A few years ago when I was fifteen, some time has passed since that, at that time I did not know that I was wasting my time watching hentai for simple fun, first as an experience it was masturbation at the age of 8 and then I had sex with a cousin at the 9, which I do not claim, possibly she has regrets about it but now I understand her and in a way she did not know what happened, she only felt rich at that time.

When I grew up I was induced like most of this generation to anime and from there I jumped to hentai, first hentai of normal sex, then as everyone knows the thing is degenerating into something that is not possible to obtain and satisfy in real life, they passed The years and masturbation was part of my daily routine, there was in my 20s time to get a partner but mental problems of anxiety and bad decisions did not allow me to do anything.

Pornography to some extent has prevented me from getting a girlfriend to love and love, I feel frustrated for being over 30 and not having a partner, the thing with pornography or hentai has degenerated a lot, I went from vanilla to rape, and then to mind control, pure fantasies that allowed me to be in control.

Until a few years ago I have also tried different types and when I masturbate seeing that at the end I feel a garbage and it is a horrible feeling because I know it is low.

I also have to clarify that at some point I had problems with sexual orientation, I mistakenly thought that I was homosexual, which is not, I am simply too empathetic and very sensitive, which I got confused, I have never received psychiatric help and possibly it is not good idea given current times.

I still have thoughts about it, and hentai does not help much, I recently stopped watching porn and masturbating, it has been very complicated for me, but I know it is the right decision.