Took me a long time to realise I'm addicted

You've already took a large step in realising it.

The next steps are to admit that we are powerless. Left to our own devices, we cannot beat the addiction.

From there the recovery begins. Many valuable resources out there. Happy to help you as well.

 

Hi Outandaway,

I LOVE everything you had to say about yourself, up until the point that you said that were a "loser".

Serioulsy, there is nothing 'loser' about being mentally and emotionally aware of where you are at!

And the fact that you have found the courage to reach out and seek help by sharing your truth so openly is another prime example of a person who is not just intelligent, but focussed on where they want to get to.

I know you haven't asked for this, but the one peice of advice I would offer is this: Try and focus on your joy. I know that can seem like an impossibility when you're feeling so low, but when you feel better, I know it'll make more sense. I PROMISE!

Learn to focus on your joy. Not your pain, or struggles. Try practicing to focus on the things you genuinely want to do. Not what you have to do. If you don't want to genuinely do something, then leave it alone.

And if you are at that satge in life where you find you have to do certain things that you wish you didn't have to do, then bite your lip, and try hard to find that positive angle. For example; if you are finishing school and you hate it, then focus on the joy that can come your way if you push to get your best grades. just do what ever it takes to find and focus on your JOY!


Do the things which allow you to breathe easy, and all those things that make you feel at ease and at peace, not those things that stress you out.

 

Awesome that you're here! Welcome.

 

Love being here brother. The struggle can be tough at the best of times, and this is what Im trying to focus on during this tough time I'm in.

 

Being self aware is your ticket to greatness, now we need to pull your self-esteem out of the pit to get there.

Have a wonderful journey my friend!

 

You're not alone man. Everyone on this site has in some way struggled with PMO - otherwise they wouldn't be here. I would definitely recommend finding an accountability partner/someone to share your struggles with and receive feedback. Sharing in my opinion is one of the most helpful things you can do in recovery; the more you internalise your struggles and pain, the greater they seem to become.

DM me if you ever want to talk.

 

Welcome!
Keep figthing the battle!

 

We are real people talking to you.
You're gonna make it. This is happening.
Don't step back by any reasons.

 

Welcome, @ outandaway.
First off, you're not a loser. That's part of what this addiction does to us, it robs us our self-respect.
I admire you for recognizing your addiction at such an early age. It took me a LOT longer to admit I'm an addict.
We're all here for the same reason, so keep coming back. We'll get through this!