The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 222

 

Back to Day 0 real quick. Where I went wrong was in not reaching out to my accountability partner. I told myself that I could do this on my own and I didn't need to bother him. Big mistake. We are NOT fighting alone and we shouldn't act like it.

St. Padre Pio, pray for us!

 

2 days
I need to try harder

 

Day 0

I don’t even have any excuse.

Right now my phone is my enemy.
Since I’ve bought my new phone and laptop, they were pure and I’ve never watched porn on them (I had other devices to ruin my life with…). But now that I’ve moved away, I only took these two devices and I stayed clean knowing that you can only use the “pure” trick once. And then my birthday came, and I totally replaced and now I feel like the flood gates are open and I can’t get away from my phone. The computer is still pure… so that is nice.

The problem is that in the past I would “cripple” my phone to make it harder to relapse like putting it in grayscale mood (everything in the phone is grey) and using the SPIN browser instead of chrome because it is filtered and don’t have incognito mood. But now I’m a new city and I must use chrome because it has a build in translation and I must use colors because the subway system here is amazing but I can’t navigate it on the map when everything is grey.
It’s just hard…

On a brighter note. I’m 75% done with the book that Terry Crews wrote and it is just so great. The man is amazing and the book really talk about dealing with depression, feeling hopeless and a lot about both porn and the importance of a positive understanding of fitness for mental health. I’m recommending it to all of my friends, but here I think it would do the most good.
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/19287159-manhood


And other than that, 1002 pages! Great job everybody and especially @RiseToGreatness. You made an amazing place for us. Thank you.

 

What do you do when a big mosquito or a horse-fly approaches you? Do you stand and look at it for 5 minutes doing nothing, allowing it to feast on you or do you smash it dead in less then a second? Take to p the same approach and do not allow p to suck the life out of you.

 

447 days high king
514 days no PMO, semen retention

I had sex yesterday, it's been 3 months since the last time. Poor girl I had no mercy haha. I'm feeling with an extra boost of energy, that is the good thing of sex the extra energy. I just woke up and saw a girl a beautiful fitness girl texted me when are we having sex. It is a bit tempting only because of the extra energy. But that is greedines, I got my fair share. Also I'm a loyal man.

 

Day 2. Stuck in a rod. I feel at least some power over the addiction but everything else feels so messed up.
...
Ok, I need to get in control of my life. Otherwise it will just be ups and downs with me in the middle like a stick in the ocean.

hmm, more in my Journal

Stay clean guys! Sometimes that's the only thing that really matters

 

Day 215 no PMO. Took the day off work yesterday and went to the lake. Awesome weather. No urges. I actually tried a different type of challenge yesterday where I tried not to commit any sin at all yesterday. I had a few brief moments where I had some impure thoughts but in all cases I prayed for God to remove them and it worked. It was a cool day… I stayed calm and happy and it felt like God was with me. Try it if you have the chance. Good luck today everyone and may God be with you in this fight.

 

That's very cool bro and you should do it every day ! One of my cruxes now is the driving, for very often I tend to get angry and quite abusive verbally when something goes wrong on the road as well as when somebody behaves in rude, offensive, stupid or lazy-piggybacking manner.

 

Day 71

 

Day 26. A lot of things to do today I hope I can do it all in the best way that I can. God bless you all brothers and sisters.

 

day 80-warrior

 

@Slider8 great advice!

 

Day 53

 

Checking in. Took my second vaccine shot today. Felt sick for a couple of days the last time, and I'm starting to feel a little beat already. Let's see what happens. Managed to put in my reboot tasks before the shot though so that's good.

Spoiler: Daily tasks

1. Physical exercise. (Done; lots of walking.)
2. Meditation. (Done; 10 min.)
3. Study about reboot. (Done; Listened to a podcast episode featuring Gary Wilson.)
4. Eating moderately. (Done; two reasonable meals in a 6 hour window + a free ice cream in between while I was out in the sun, because I had a coupon. )

 

Day 16! "Feeling the flatline I guess. Boy, is this going to be interesting! Feels like the first time I read about it, because I felt it, but without knowing what it is. It was the transition of change as your brain prepares for your new body as it restarts and restructures your new neocortical pathways and probabilities to your newfound strengths and spiritual potential, which of course can not be tested and implemented without having the basic feelings of a creature of God switch off )( this includes joy as well)( and switch from the past body, to the new body which has all the glittering, interconnected and possibilities )(mentioned before )(of The newfound life in God's Kingdom, and in this life, and in the others. One body... Able to walk with God, able to... to hear God and see the days that are to come and days that sound like more, for I feel no feeling of anger emanating from God kept for you, but only the eagerness of those who appear before Him, His children, children who have stepped forward and stepped through the light, in the Golden room of God."
Man, if I was 100% Christian I would've gotten so much cash, clout, or Zebra and Virgin galactic stock up, for that previous line to be said in the churches.
Anyway, true opinion check here... Like if I wrote things like these, but longer, is there a way to get paid for that? Besides becoming a priest, like that blind nun sightseer(ironic ha?) told me I was going to be when I was just 5 or 6?

 

Hey brothers, what do you think about this?

 

Something to ask yourself...

 

Pretty nice! quite good play with the abstracts. Intentional or just natural reflex?