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Day 23
Working on my rasengan

 

Day 2

A nice, chill day today. I had another session with my therapist today which went really well.

I had an urge about midday which I dealt with by playing a quick game on League.

 

518 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 96 - Eternal Mangekyou Sharingan

 

Day 24
I feel more sensitive and overstimulated than usual, not sexually but physically and emotionally. This seems healthy as my body adjusts to a more realistic production and utilization of chemicals and hormones. It can be overwhelming at times, I am making the best of it.
No sexual urges, well no pornographic ones. I think about screwing my girlfriend a couple times a day and it's starting to get me excited like porn used to which is a reeeeaaaaallllllly good sign.

Keep on fighting my ninja brothers!!!!!

 

Its either day 43 or 46 (my day counter might not be accurate) My urges have been low, and I think of porn very rarely, and if i do for a small time, and i can just think of something else. Today I was thinking about this female friend of mine that Im gonna see and i got an erection which hasn't happened in a long time. It happened in class and i was daydreaming for like 5-10 minutes about having sex with her. Instead of pornstars or models whenever i get horny i think of girls i know. Im glad this happeed in clas, and not at night when im alone because it would have been way more annoying. I think my horniness might be slowly coming back. I know im not gonna relapse though I really can see the improvements I have made in my porn, and masturbation addiction my relapses are much less, and my streaks are way longer, I'm proud of myself, and belive that Im very close to defeating my addiction for good.

 

Day 3

Another pretty chill day again. Admittedly, I did spend a little too much time playing games with my friends so I didn't have time to workout and shower.

No notable urges today.

 

Day 97 - Eternal Mangekyou Sharingan

 

Day 4 - Relapsed

So I found another way around my blockers. I've realised from this relapse that I should not be so reliant on my blockers as there will ALWAYS be a way to find porn. When I accidentally found this new way around the blockers I obviously had an immediately MASSIVE urge so I didn't have much time to react. I tried talking to myself, didn't work. I tried going down stairs for a little bit away from my computer, didn't work. I tried playing a game of League, didn't work. I tried meditating, didn't work. I was being too negative from the start, I was too focused on the things I couldn't do to distract myself instead of the things I could. And when I say "didn't work." that's what I thought at the time because they didn't work instantly, I stayed downstairs for like 1 minute, I played 1 game of league, I talked to myself for like 30 seconds etc. I didn't give myself a chance to even distract myself properly because I become unbelievably impatient when I have an urge so it feels like it's not working when I've only just started the distracting. I could've stayed downstairs for longer, played more games of league, I could've done the Microcosmic Orbit meditation again since so far that's worked really well, but for some reason I didn't even try it this time when I had the urge. I've also not been feeling great today from the start, I've been very achy all over and generally not feeling great physically so it's been affecting me mentally as well, so I naturally was at an even worse disadvantage than usual. Whenever I think I might have accidentally found a new way around my blockers the trick that I end up always falling for is "checking". "Make sure you can't get to the sites you wanna get to by looking them up and seeing what comes up. Once you realise nothing comes up the urge will go away. But if you don't check, that curiosity will keep causing massive urges."

I need to become much less reliant on the blockers than I currently am and just accept that I can access porn at any time even with all of the blockers in the world. This is also another case of just "keep distracting, even if it feels like it's not working".

I'll do better.

 

Day 25
Doing good.

Cold showers work, make sure it's ice cold then get in the water and your urge will be gone in 30 seconds or less.
Don't skimp on the cold part.

 

Thank you for the advice. Another really big issue I think is that even if the distractions work, if the urge is already super strong, it'll come right back the moment the distraction stops, so things like showers work great during the actual distraction itself, but the moment the distracting stops the urge comes right back. And so the more time the urge comes back the more panicked and desperate I become which honestly shouldn't be the case, I still believe my biggest issue is my fear of the urges, the stronger they become and the harder it is to get rid of them the more fearful, stressed and anxious I become, when ironically the less I care and then less attention I give to the urges, the less powerful the urges are and the less time they stick around for.

 

Day 98 - Eternal Mangekyou Sharingan

 

Day 26
Ending Friday, getting prepared for the weekend.

 

Day 1

I went out on a walk with my Mum for a couple of hours today. I had a few urges but nothing too crazy.

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Day 27
Tough morning. Watching the Squid game on Netflix. I will make it through the rest of the day.

 

Day 99 - Eternal Mangekyou Sharingan