THE STAR TREK CHALLENGE!

Yeah I get like that. Times of stress are a big trigger for me too. Focusing on something else is a good idea.

 

Reset. Honestly not feeling too bad about this, as it was not a binge, and was not to any weird fetish crap. Back to it.

 

Three things to take away from this reset.

One, while resetting in general is bad, I feel A LOT better if I limit the resets as much as possible. It is important not to let that knowledge be a way that I rationalise resetting in the future. However, I am trying not to be so hard on myself when I mess up.

Second, the insane urges these last few days really highlights just how much I leaned on wet dreams to deal with the early stages of streaks. While wet dreams do make me more urged for a day or so after them, they also take away some of the internal pressure, so it's a double-edged sword I suppose. What I need to remember though, is that the urges caused by a wet dream are in my head, and go away if I dont feed them. The pressure relieved by a wet dream on the other hand, is a real thing that is actually happening.

Third, I have a nasty habit of getting really strong urges, overcoming them, then rationalising resetting the next day or the next day after that. It's almost like, on some subconscious level, I am setting myself up for a reset before it actually happens. This is actually a thing that happens when you are addicted to hard drugs and try to stop taking them - the brain plants the idea of failure, and once it's planted, it becomes self-fulfilling. I already said I need to treat resetting as though it is not even an option, and to ALWAYS choose to do something else, but it isnt always that easy. All I can really do is try again. Despite my recent failures, I know deep down that once I get some momentum going, I'll be able to make some serious progress. I just need to get past this early stage.

 

It's good to be back!

 

Sorry to hear that. Hope you get back on track soon.

 

Thank you!

 

Back to being a civilian. Mustering all my energy to get to at least 2 weeks this time. My repeated failure is starting to annoy me.

 

Welcome aboard!

 

Thank you! Care to enlist?

 

That's fine, good luck to you! How are you doing at it so far?