28 year old handsome ladies man virgin

Currently drunk, its 1am, I am heart broken.
I started masterbating furiously when i was 12. Started spiraling down fucked up and more fucked up porn. This caused me to be impossible to get hard with a girl in person. I'm fucking 28 and I can't get an erection with any girl (still a virgin). Not to sound cocky but I am a bartender, very social, many girls want me, I tried but I couldn't fuck a single one (tried with over 50 girls). I went to my doctor, got my blood work done, surprise surprise there were no issues. Doctor just prescribed me some blue pill and said I'll get over it. So 3 times i took a 50mg pill, my dick still didnt work. Then I meet this girl who is my type, blonde, blue eyes beautiful, but she says she wants a fwb. I'm looking for a relationship. 3 months of hooking up and no success with getting hard. Finally, I decide to take 100mg of blue pill and get a half boner and managed to barely fuck her. She gets tired of my limp dick and starts fucking some random guys on tinder... So here I am now. Heartbroken, devastated. I want to get my shit together. I am going to try to do a weekly updated minimum. My goal is to hit 90 days of NoFap at the very least. I'm sick and tired of this shit.

 

Thanks for the words of encouragement! Definitely will be hard to not obsess over the "is it working yet" part.

And no literally haven't had morning wood in years... after not being able to get hard with the chick for the hundredth time I tried watching porn after to see if I'm broken and the fucking dick got hard so fast. I was so fucking mad at my brain / dick... Like I had one of the hottest girls in bed with me and it was like bubble gum. Then I see an ugly chick on porn and instant hard on.... FUCK

 

I'm hoping I'll stick through with it this time. I really feel like I hit rock bottom. I want to start a family soon :/

 

Thanks for the encouragement I really appreciate it.
If I ever wanted to talk to someone is that

I like that idea! I'll use morning woods as a measure from now on. Is there a chat I can join if I ever wanted to talk to someone??
Also I'm curious to hear of your story. Do you have anything posted?

 

Thanks! I'll definitely read up some articles on that website, especially if I get tempted to cave in.
Is there any chats I can join if I wanted to talk to someone about it?
Also feel free to message me if you have trouble talking to women. As long as you have confidence it rarely matters what comes out of your mouth ahah

 

It's way worse bro... No boners ever. No morning woods, no random boners. My dicks dead. Pills barely got me a half erection enough to fuck.
It's been over a year I quit watching porn. Watched it the first time since 3 days ago, fuckin instant boner.

I'm def doing hard mode. I'm just gonna keep posting here my progress so I don't cave in :/

 

So I went to my family doctor. Told him everything. I took an ecg test, and a bunch of blood tests. He said everything physically looks normal and healthy af. He just prescribed me the ble pill and said I could go to psychotherapy.
I'm in generally great shape. I work alot and eat clean.
How would I get further tests ie the blood flow around the penis area / is there a specific name for this test?

 

Interesting! I'll give your story a ready tomorrow! We're in this together.
I'll be putting updates on here every couple of days as well!

And yes I stopped porn for over a year

 

No I tried to quit PMO but I was only successful to cut out porn. I still MO but way less frequently. Like once or twice a week. But I feel like if I want to truly recover I gotta go hard mode for at least 90 days

 

Update:
It's officially been 6 days and I got a random boner at work. Still no morning woods but ill take the small wins where I can ahah
I've been doing alot of self reflecting this past week. I realized I spent too much time on my phone, talking to multiple women at once (5-10 girls at least per day). I was just emotionally stressing myself out. This week I decided to cut all that shit out and only talk to a girl if I see a future with them and not just to hook up. It resulted in me going way harder in the gym. I actually got to finish my first netflix show in years - squid games. I went golfing alone one day after work too 18 holes. I'm loving all this extra me time instead of being absorbed on my phone.
I also went on 2 first dates this week with 2 really good girls. They're not the hottest but they're cute, and I'm starting to accept that instagram is fucking bullshit and girls don't look like that in real life. I talked to these women about what they're looking for in life / goals / plans. Before I would just fast forward to hookup. Now I couldn't care less. I feel like I've proved to myself that I can get most girls that I want and it's time for me to settle down and find something serious. Fuck the media for portraying players as something to be desired. It's fucking lonely being a player. Sure it looks fun but gives no meaning to your life.
Anyways, I feel like I've grown alot during my first week of nofap hard mode and I'm excited to see where the rest of my journey will take me.

 

Update / question for yall:
Officially 8 days in. Been pretty easy so far. Luckily I stopped watching porn in 2020 so doing this whole hard mode thing isn't as bad as I thought.
For the past 8 years I used to talk to 5-20 girls a day. It would eat up all my time. Always trying to set up the next date or get nudes.
With me doing NoFap and turning a new leaf I find I have alot more free time everyday. Like I have 2-3 hours a day where I do not know what to do. What do you guys do to kill time?
I feel guilty playing video games, like I should be more productive with my time. Same idea with watching shows. I'm slowly getting back into gaming and watching shows. I work out 3-4 days a week.
I still use Tinder/Bumble but no one caught my eye yet. Just pointless/boring convos. Also I feel like I should wait 3 months or until my dick starts working till I put effort into talking/dating girls. Just tryna figure out what to do till then haha
I digress... So what do yall do to kill time?

 

I bought drums a couple months ago and practice those as a form of art haha
I spend a ton of time with fam and friends. I mean the extra time you have outside of that. Like the spare time when you're alone.
What do you do???
Maybe I'll start learning Japanese I've always found japan culture interesting