BEAT YOUR LONGEST STREAK

Day 11 of 67

 

18/22

the urges are insane.

 

110/113 by the end of the week i will be further than i have ever been.

 

Day 5/120

 

58/64

 

524/730 days no PMO, semen retention

 

19/22
Can’t afford to quit now.

 

Day 12 of 67

 

Day 68/12 semen retention.

 

Day 6/40

 

Day 5/22

 

Day 6/120

 

Day 21/24
I wanted to post a kind of congratulatory post to myself because I haven't done so anywhere yet. Making a thread seems fairly pointless since I'm not that far into my NF journey.
My feelings so far: I have an increased base line happiness. My mind isn't anxiety ridden, when I was masturbating frequently I'd constantly be inside my head, "Do they they think I look ugly?" or, "I look like shit right now."
I would self doubt so much, a theme throughout my youth through to recent times, I lived my whole life projecting self destructive self-fulfilling prophecies onto myself. That job interview? I'm so nervous I'll fail. Or they'll think I'm totally inadequate for the job. That group of people I'd want to try to hang out with? They'll think I'm a weirdo, no way man.

Now, I feel content, level headed, unwary, not so much confident as I am just willing to give things a shot. Most of all I can walk around and simply exist without "FAILURE" being the default voice program in my head.
The NoFap energy benefit is completely true. Yesterday, I had the most sexual fantasies I've had in quite a while. The whole day seemed to be sexual fantasy after sexual fantasy. After admittedly playing along with these in my head and extending their duration far beyond what was necessary, I finally said enough was enough and shot them down. After the fact I felt full of energy, so much so I ended up blasting through a workout and feeling rejuvenated.

My goal is 45 days after I reach 24.

 

Relapsed.
Starting over
0/12

 

Day 13 of 67

 

Day 69/12 semen retention.

 

Thanks that little phrase has bought me some peace and strength this morning.

 

111/113 aaaaaallllmost there

 

3/30

 

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