The Lord of the Rings Challenge

This is yesterday's report.

Had a productive Friday and completed a lot of things during the day. Then in the evening, I met up for after work with my new colleagues for the first time. I indulged in some junk food, which is not the biggest deal, but I also indulged in quite a lot of alcohol which is a bigger deal. Some of us stayed out until 3-4 pm and I drank so much that I was close to throwing up when I got home... I'm paying the price today with being sleep deprived and having a strong hangover.

I'm not sure how to approach alcohol. I don't drink often but when I actually do drink, I usually drink a lot. That's sort of the alcohol culture here in my country and most of my friends and coworkers are like me. While I think it's really fun to sometimes get drunk and bond with people over beers and drinks, I of course realise that it's also harmful on the body and risky with respect to PMO since it makes you loose disciplin, can induce urges, etc. It's also a lot of peer pressure, which I know sounds silly but that's definitely something that has an effect on me.

Sorry for rambling, I just needed to put some thoughts into text today I guess. If anyone have similar mixed feelings about alcohol, feel free to give me some input, how you approach it, etc.

Spoiler: Daily tasks

1. Physical exercise. (Done)
2. Qigong. (Done)
3. Meditation. (Done)
4. Studying about reboot. (Done)
5. Eating in moderation. (Not done)

 

Day 7: I’ve been hidden in the Orc caves for so long. A slave to PMO. It’s time to venture out again and destroy this cursed Ring!

 

Days free of M: indicated by counter
Days free of p-subs: counter + 8
Days free of P: 338
Just for the heck of it, days free of alcohol: 1,003

I didn't realize I was at 1,000 days free of alcohol. I just got the sudden impulse to look up how long it's been. This is kind of cool.

 

checking in. still alive

 

I have been binge watching youtube videos for a few days and I am feeling worse .
I am going for a dopamine detox for a day hope that helps.

 

67 days

 

All my others attempts has a common slip
That's using so much instagram...

I tried to used today but i resist to it, cause i know i will fishing if i do.
Not today pmo, not today

 

Day 2

Today was nice, I went out on a walk with my Mum and got a haircut. I had a speaking test in my Japanese class today, I did pretty terrible because the moment the test began my mind went blank and I literally forgot everything due to the pressure. I'm obviously feeling upset about that but it's not a big deal, it'll get easier and better simply by practicing more

I didn't have any urges that I can recall but I did have a few moments where it felt like I was about to get an urge but didn't, if that makes sense.

 

Day 237

 

Day 5 complete!

I'm really happy to have made it through this day because it was rough. All my brain could think about all day was sex/PMO, and I found it hard to be productive. I struggled with a lot of boredom and finding things to do. Sometimes I just flopped on the couch and stared at the wall, trying to trick my body into thinking that I was doing something important. It feels like a miracle that I'm still clean, but I'm not complaining.

St. Anthony of the Desert, pray for us!

 

Day 1 today! I found that alcohol has also become an issue for me over the last year. I have been craving it too. Now my tracker is marking both alcohol recovery AND nofap recovery. Here's to the power of this journey!

 

Hero and inspiration , for me

 

1/500

The first day towards redemption. It may seem very less to the world, (and obviously it is less). But for me ,who is hooked to PM like hell , it's a small win.

So inspired that people are making progress which means , it's doable and not gonna tricked by my mind anymore.

Thank you heros for inspiring me with ur control and resistance stories.

 

Day 10

 

Went to prom, got labelled as the stud.
Thanks to nofap, cold showers, exercise and daily meditation.

 

13 days
This time I'll make it to 90

 

Let the journey begin!
This is the third time I've reached this mark in my life.
The first one was just lest year, I've done it without really changing other parts in my life and it backfired and truly broke me and almost cost me my relationship.

The second time whas a month and a half, and I managed to do it simply because I didn't have time to fap. I still haven't changed my identity regarding porn and other parts of my self.

This time is so much better. I'm not using any porn blockers or putting my phone on Grey mood (because I need all of its functions these days).
I'm not running away from it, I do get urges and I fight them and chosing life instead of porn.

Thank you all! Truly I couldn't have done this without you guys.

 

You can do it!
I wandered so long on and off this website and the spark appeared after more than 5 years and I am now able to reach such a milestone. My advice for you is not to ever, ever despair. Never loose track of this beautiful aim and keep on working on becoming a better person and dropping this wrong habit.
We're all in this together, keep going

 

Day 0!