21 Days on Nofap - I am sexualizing women more than ever, I even can't concentrate during lectures

I thought that this whole sexualization would eventually stop, but it's getting harder and harder every day, so much that I can't even concentrate during lectures because the "sexual beauty of my female classmates" is distracting me all the time.

During lectures, I just feel like screaming and going crazy, I literally concentrate more on avoiding/hiding my constant boner instead on what the Profesor is saying

And if I don't study (like before I fall asleep), the urges are so freaking high, and the only reason I have not relapsed yet is because I am at my dorm with my roommate together (so obviously there's no privacy)

Will it get better? I was in flatline for the first 2 weeks, right now, if I want to keep going, I just have to get used to feel aroused and horny all the time, like someone fasting must get used to feeling hungry all the time.

 

I'm 23 years old

I mean 21 DAYS on NoFap ie 3 weeks

 

What I'm worried the most is that all my porn induced kinks are not fading away, they are even stronger than ever (so it's not only women)

This paradoxically motivates me to continue NoFap (so if I orgasm, it's gotta be the biggest ever) and try to do everything to live on my own (to get a job in the future) so I'd be able to live out all those thoughts I'm having rn

But this is just silly tbh

 

A Gf only to have sex with? That'd be egoistic, I don't want to have a gf only to use her as a free prostitute. (not to mention that my phimosis could be a problem)

Also, I don't party, I'm the most introverted guy ever

 

I mean, the kinks I have were present before porn (where I used to watch nothing or some soft-porn YouTube stuff like once a week maybe, I was 16 when I first watched actual porn and discovered nofap actually before I started to watch porn because of the Chinese raised testosterone study)

But porn "intensified" them and let's say modified them. What was just a thing for hosiery has become a sissy kink (although I tried mums hosiery way before I started to watch actual porn, so cross dressing is also somehow natural for me) . I haven't even been watching this stuff for long, maybe just on no more than 10-20 ocassions.

 

But this makes me completely unable to concentrate during lectures, if a classmate is sitting in front of me turning me on.

I even have to avoid boners if I see a woman (I hate the word girl as they all are 21+) in the kitchen at my dorm, it just makes me wanna scream out of frustration

Is there anything I could do, or take, to curb my sex drive? I am really suffering from that.

That's also what I am telling all the time, that right now the only motivation to NoFap is to become a straight A student, get a good job so I can live on my own without any problems, and to live my cross dress/sissy/used hosiery/... Kinks out so when I do it, I'll get the "biggest orgasm ever" as a treat for my achievements

 

It's not only the orgasm - it's like everything, the longer I abstain, the more I will enjoy everything when living my kinks out (this means everything before, during, after orgasm)

And because I crave such satisfaction (and don't want to rely on pmo because it's shit), I am motivated enough to become a straight a student to get a good job and to be able to live on my own AND to finance my "secret life"

Its kind of like "if I will ace this test, I'm gonna buy myself some McDonald's, but right now, I don't allow myself to eat any junk food, but if I allow myself then, I'm gonna eat the junkiest junk food ever"

 

Idk, maybe you're right, but the same goes for mcdonalds. Even if you eat the best meal there, you will still crave it, but you will nevertheless be satisfied

I mean, all I want is to just feel that fucking nylon layer on a woman's leg.