The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in. Went to a pub yesterday to eat some dinner and to play shuffleboard with a friend, just a nice relaxing hang. However, I caught myself several times checking out some good looking girls, looking at their bodies, etc. Need to be more disciplined with that.

 

Day 2!

 

Day 22

Today was my first “holy shit my fingers are starting to type a bad thing on google moment”

I was truly afraid for a moment because it took me a couple of seconds to stop and remember why I should not enter a porn site.

I’m clean, I’m still here. But shit, I hate that it’s still in my system

 

Day 238 no PMO. Today is my 18 year anniversary to my wife. She deserves for me to stop forever.

 

Day 94

 

Yesterday I played a porn game. It haunts me still today but the urges are not so severe.
I also want to say, by my standards the game was pretty good and with a p actress that I fancy. These are "porn thoughts" of course, but its important to realize what I am thinking and challenge these thoughts. I need to learn to live without it!

After I had played it I MO'd in my bed. So it's good that at least I didn't escalate to more porn (but these games are very time-consuming).
Also, I didn't finish the game so that's a trigger today ...

 

Hello all, I want to post daily for a while, until my streak gets higher. 1 day so far, made it through last night. I’m also trying to quit YouTube at the same time, because lying in bed watching YouTube (even innocent content) is a trigger for me. Also, I just want more free time, Youtube is such a time vacuum. Hope you all have a good day, stay strong.

 

Day 11 - Relapsed

Unfortunately I had an urge very early on today that was so strong I was feeling sick and having a panic attack. Since reaching day 7, my symptoms were getting much stronger and so I've been having a lot of fantasising (obviously not intentional) which has largely been the primary reason for my urges, constantly thinking of things I used to watch before I started to quit and things I've previously relapsed to, as well as seeing stuff like women flashing whenever I closed my eyes. I've been feeling like I've been having a lot of tension throughout my body and a small urge consistently throughout the days. I was also starting to catch myself looking for triggers, such as clicking on Discord users profiles (who I know are female) in the hopes that they have some NSFW social media linked on their profile. The reason I relapsed this time is because I was calling the doctors to make an appointment about something but I was put in a que which lasted like 30 minutes. The urge started just before I started calling the doctors and so I was hoping I could get the appointment and then immediately go on a walk afterwards. But instead I was put in a que so I was basically trapped for that time since I couldn't leave incase the que finished whilst I was gone, I couldn't play games either for that same reason. So my options were very limited, I realise now that I could've gone outside in my garden or played a single player game (since I can pause those) or something like that, but this is the usual situation where I realise I could've done these things in hindsight but at the time I was too panicked so I couldn't think of anything. I started looking for sites my blocker hasn't blocked whilst I was waiting for the que to finish and then I PMO'd to the website I found once I finished the call with the doctors. I'm not super upset about this relapse because it's a pretty unique scenario where I was basically trapped in my room with very little to do, if the urge was this strong but I wasn't calling the doctors I do genuinely think I would've dealt with it fine because I would've just got out for a walk.

I've proven to myself now that I can do this! The key things I've realised from this new record streak is that my routine is UNBELIEVABLY important. As well as this, having a set plan for what to do when urges aren't manageable on my own, and having it written down somewhere so I can just see it and do it instead of having to think of a plan in the moment because I can't think properly when I have an urge.

This was a very specific and unfortunate situation, but obviously I'm still quite upset because at the end of the day I still relapsed, but, things are getting better.

 

Hello dear fellows of the Fellowship, may I a tale share here of the old days:

 

@BloomWasTaken DOUBLE your streak bro

 

Day check
Wet dream appears, no chaser effect on the sight

 

Day 2 completed

 

Huh, had a nasty fight with my parents, had I means to take care of me , I would have moved out when I was 15 itself. There is a silent calm after every fight but they never come to an end. Sometimes I think half my problems have been caused due to them , even the habit of PMO. I don't know what to do. How do I get out of this mess ?

 

Noted will change, but I had purposely kept it at orc so that I don't get carried away by my achievement .

 

Day 14

 

Day 12, here Im moving on with you all!

 

Day 1

Still having many urges to view P. Probably due to too often not giving in that good fight. Every good fight won makes it easier eventually. And gotta give frustrations somewhere. Channel to meditation or exercise.

 

Nice work admin, you always reply to everyone's messages and motivate them.
Thank you for taking the initiative to start this challenge and keeping this thread alive.