Fourteen Steps Challenge

Day 3/10

 

Don't lose hope!
Rise again like a wounded lion that's more dangerous than a normal lion..

 

Level 3 day 2 Done✅

 

3/10

 

0/4
No cracks so far. Seems almost too easy.

Why: I'm too old and tired for this shit.
Reward: Had a great goulash for lunch in a restaurant.

 

1/1 & 1

 

1/3

Last fall is Friday, after that I'm doing good for three days

 

4/10 almost half done

 

1/4
Getting a little distracted by female presence here and there but no pm urges detected, yet.

I fret the next step. I've ran out of reasons to write. Maybe I should relapse so I don't have to.

 

1/2

 

Level 3 + level 4 day 1 compeleted!
Now level 4 day 2.

 

5/6 ( level 5 completed, level 6 ongoing)
Getting some urges so checking in..
Why: Just tired of myself doing the same thing over n over again
Reward: Get control of body and life

 

Relapsed today

Day 0/10

 

5/10 half done, half to go. This step feels so long..

 

2/4

Had a split second urge to go and look at stuff. Harbinger of what's to come, probably.

 

6/6
Had accidentally looked at a video during day time, cause of which night's sleep was very disturbed.
This is such powerful stuff. Would have relapsed for such thing in the past, but this time my determination is stronger