I’m falling apart

is there any help lines in your country, ( as I can't recommend one without knowing your country ) ?
I have talked to people on free help lines before for emotional support.

 

Jurte, I think you need a therapist to talk to.

 

Jurte, remember that this journey is never linear but has it's peaks and valleys. Right now you are down and it's suck.
A quick tip I can give is: take small steps right now to try to structure thing around you. Clean your room, take care of personal hygiene etc. Then commit yourself going to classes. The best thing we can do when feeling this deep void of loneliness is being around other people. Are there any other things you are interrested in that you can structure your social life around? It can be dancing, martial arts, cooking food etc.

I wish you the best

 

Please be careful about how you adresse yourself. That is your addiction speaking. You have relapsed and your dopamin neurotransmitters are completely shoot at the moment. That's why you feel like you are hating yourself. Rest up and try to ge some high quality sleep. If money is tight at the moment, I highly recommend sites like meetup where you can find free activites and also meet new people.
Again, remeber that this will never be linear and have it's ebbs and flows.

All the best,
W

 

Well, to relapse is not too bad of a thing, it is not too scary. What is truly scary is for you to no longer continue with the determination to reboot. If you stop coming on NoFap, if you start PMO more and more and more without thoughts of your reboot, that is what is scary.

Yes, I greatly dislike the feeling after a relapse. There is no escaping it - just how you said - the chemical imbalance is now taking place within your body. Do you have access to a gym? I highly recommend going to the gym or doing some sort of exercise today, preferably aerobic exercise, maybe some light weightlifting. You are in a weakened state right now, so more prone to injury. That's the only reason I wouldn't recommend a hard training session for today.

What I found that works well is after a relapse to go to the gym and swim laps in the pool. Although the negative effects of a relapse are still there, they become lessened.

Here is a book on rebooting - a professional approach to ending this addiction. It is a lot of reading, but if you can start reading and studying the book even for 15-20 minutes a day, it can greatly help.

 

no problem at all. Yea it’s a really good book, has helped me a lot. Good luck and hope you feel better soon!

 

well ok, but you can talk on the phone to them if you prefer that to face to face.

 

I've found this video from Mark Queppet helpful:

 

Firstly you gotta look at it for what it is. You're masurbating because you're trying to substitute for something else. Don't see it as an evil external force that's taking over you but rather a biproduct of something else. Once you do that, focus on that "why" and put all your attention on it until that becomes the obsession. Change the things in your life that are causing it, is what I'm saying.
If you try to stop it head on it'll be too hard. We become addicted to things as a way of escaping our problems. You wanna eliminate flapping, that's how you do it. Face your problems, however uncomfortable that is, cause what's the alternative.