Struggling with commitment

You noticed your behaviour and you know how to behave. Implement

 

I can tell you from experience that the loss of your vital male essence is at the root of this problem. It is the animating force behind everything you do. Animals dedicate their lives to showcasing their worth to the opposite sex. We are no different. Some of it may be on a subconscious level, but it’s always there. So obviously when you’re tricking your body into thinking your getting some constantly. It loses desire for everything else.

 

The only thing I feel committed to other than managing to not leave my job I despise by now is a savage addiction that honestly requires a ton of work to keep active I could be committing to something that doesn't consume my life so I don't think remaining committed to feeding my addictions will ever help me be less selfish nor capable of committing to anything that doesn't serve the addiction dark night of the soul battle between dark and light The Force will aid thee if thou art brave enough to endure the test.

I am a weak peasant and town drunkard yet I won't give up despite the beast having the upper hand sry to dump my own crap I wanna start volunteering immediately even if I cannot get clean to show up better.

If your job doesn't make you feel powerless and exploited I guess that is a nice improvement you are striving for. For me I know I won't stop using unless I find work that doesn't conflict me from the inside out.

 

Awesome!