Hi. Hoping this is my last try

There is nothing to be embarrassed about here all of us, all different ages, all different people, are here to beat variations on the same thing.

Changing habits is something that I'm in the process of doing right now. Finding good habits to fill free time with are a great way to get started and feel better about how you are spending your time. By the way, 45 days is an impressive streak. It shows that you've got the willpower to beat this, and if you've done it once you can do it again.

Consider making a reboot journal! In the "reboot logs" section of this forum you can create your own thread and post daily, every few days, whatever you decide. When and what you post is entirely up to you, but it's a great way to add a little extra accountability.

Whatever you do, and whatever happens, just keep going. Relapses happen, and the best thing you can do from them is to take note of what happened and fix it so that it is not an issue anymore. The community here is extremely helpful in solving problems, so don't be afraid to reach out!

Stay strong