confession im ashamed of

Hey man, I hear you. I slowly, over the progress of years, started getting into categories of porn that are pretty fucked up and in the end it ruined my self confidence. There is no easy way out, and it seems like you have hit a low point where you are having to face your own negative self-image. But don't give in! You are right in the middle of the first round of withdrawal symptoms which includes insane urges, depression, and anxiousness/negative self talk... exactly what you are experiencing! This pain that you are feeling will turn you into the type of man that you want to be, but only if you face it. If you can stick with this challenge, look at yourself in the mirror, and go through the long process of rebuilding your confidence, you will be stronger and better than most men out there. And that is a promise.

Like I said, don't give in! It is generally said that the painful withdrawals subside around 14-21 days and your brain will begin rebooting to healthier cravings/normal sex drive after a couple of months. The first two weeks are like 80% of the journey in a sense. Push through the next ten-ish days and you will notice it get easier!

 

I think your journey into weird stuff is fairly common when dealing with porn. It's like the drug addict that is searching for the next better fix. You were doing the same thing, and I've done it myself. When I think about the stuff i watched and done while watching porn it amazes me at how f*cked up I was and did not know it. I'm just over 60 days porn free and can tell you that i have no interest in going back to porn or watching some of the crap that I did. In time it will get better for you.