I can´t find someone to express myself

Hi everyone, I hope you all are good.

Two years ago I recognize that I have a problem with this and I tried to stop with some info in a videos, but I can´t beat the PMO. A year ago, I recognize my problem to my mom and grandma (my father go out to cigarretes) and log me here. My mom and grandma can´t understand my situation, just say me: "With your will you can´t stop"... I love my family but that was bullshit.
I´m here a year ago, I found an accontably partner but it ends very very bad. A week ago sent a message to the psicologist in my universityt to book a meet, but they haven´t answer me... I CAN´T FIND SOMEONE CONFIDENT TO EXPRESS MYSELF.
Well, I find a good person here and she listen to me, but I need someone more... regular. I need someone to sent a message in that dark moments before the mess. Just, I would like to talk with someone real, in person that understand me.

I hope you all have a good journal. See you.

 

Sorry, but they are my family. Like I was said, I don´t have a father. I talk to my male friends too and they don´t understand me, so, male or female are equal for me, anyone can´t give me good advices.

And yes, I want talk to the school counselor, but I´m afraid if they just help student with problems of normal students, no with sexual devepment. I´m very nervous about it.

Thanks for the confidence. Maybe I send you a message later, and sorry for my tone, but now I´m very angry and sad.