Finally 90 days without Masturbation and I regain my self control

In 2016, I was returning home from school with one of my friends. We were discussing many topics. Suddenly he said,
" I am going to tell you a secret, you first make promise you won't tell anyone". I said, "Okay. But what is it ? " He said, "I don't feel comfortable without masturbating once in a week." After hearing it, I asked him with curiosity what masturbation was. He said - " First softly touch your pe**s, jerk it off for some moments, then some fluid will come out and you will feel relaxed and cheerful."

Then I was introduced to Masturbation for first time in my life. After some weeks, my another friend gave me a memory card with porn materials. I was 13 then. That's how I got hung up with p and M.

I can't describe how severely Masturbation and porn affected my life. Instead of playing and studying, I kept watching porn for hours in a day and ended up in masturbating. As a teenager, I didn't get any physical energy and mental motivation to study after masturbation.
I tried thousands time to quit Masturbation, I couldn't. Everytime I made fake promises to myself that I won't watch p and do M. But I don't know what made me to relapse. Perhaps a demon had took control over me and I could not resist. I don't know how many times I hit my head on wall, punched on table ,pulled my hair off and cried after Masturbation.

I am Muslim. Ramadan is the holy month in Islam. We have to avoid eating from dawn to dask in this month. You can't believe, but I masturbated and watched porn in this holy month too while I was fasting.

Let me share a day with you.

Everyday, I used to returned home at afternoon from school, I took a bath and my mother served me with meal. After that, I used to lock up my room and started watching porn for hours. At evening, I couldn't endure anymore and went bathroom once again. Then I masturbated there and take a bath . I felt so weak and sick after masturbation. Then I went for a sleep and I woke up after a hour. I had to eat 4-5 raw eggs and dozen of bananas to gain quick energy.Then I slept again and couldn't study anything in that night.

At least, it was the scenery of hundreds of days in my last 5 years.

Finally and Finally, I have defeated myself. I have done this today what I couldn't do in last 5 years. Believe me, bro!Now, I never feel any urge to masturbate. Yes, I relapsed into porn in this 90 days. It was not easy for me to fight simultaneously against both P and M. I didn't willingly watch porn. For example, whenever I feel any urge to watch porn, my brain directly says "No" And I don't relapse into porn. But whenever I am watching erotic scene, reading adult stuff and enjoying adult meme, my brain say," Since it is not porn, it is okay." That's how I relapsed into porn. But I have completed 24 days without porn too . I wish I will able to share my 90 days without porn success story too .

Here some tips for you if you are fighting against porn and masturbation .

1) Rearrange your bedroom - I have moved recently to new place after lockdown. So, it was easy for me to stay from M.

2) Take a break from Internet or social media.

3) Don't deceive yourself in thinking that adult stuffs, 18+ memes, erotic scene ,Instagram booty models, semi nude pictures are less harmful than porn or won't hamper your rebooting process. Your brain doesn't recognize what is porn and what is normal bikini photo ? It only knows dopamine rewarding system.

4) Stay away from all kinds of stuffs that may make you relapse in.

5) Never make jokes about porn or pornstars with friends.

6) Learn a new skill ( Like running everyday, learning chess, taking exercise or reading books).

7) Reading books will help you a lot. It can save you from fantasy and bad thoughts.

8) Make an accountability partner- This internet mate can help you more than anyone in this world. Because both of you are suffering from same problem and going through same conditions. Your accountability partner will understand you better.

9) Extreme and super hard moment - During rebooting, a moment will come when nothing in this world can please you as porn or Masturbation do. You have high grades, no pleasure, you have had a family dinner in expensive hotel, still you are sad, your favourite football or cricket team have won competition or you have watched your favourite movie or heard favourite song, but you are missing something. You can go through severe headache. You may get uncontrollable anger, high depression, anxiety.But don't lose hope. They are temporary. I always said to myself in this situation that I will endure pain for 90 days and will be happy forever in my life.

I don't and don't and don't feel any urge to masturbate at all. I feel extra motivation and energy to work. I am so proud of myself. I thought many times in this 5 years that I have to bear this addiction till the last breath of my life. Finally, I am able to quit it in my early life Now, I will be able to invest my all energy, concentration on my study and career. Nofap helps me a lot. Without joining Nofap and having accountability partner, I never could be able to quit this brutal and selfkilling addiction. But I have to be cautious now so that I never relapse in my life

No matter how long you are stuck in porn and masturbation and how old you are . You can quit this addiction. Only you need hard willing power and sacrifice. First some days will be hard. After that you will observe changes in you.

Sorry this thread is too long and it wastes your time. In fact I am so much excited that I have written a lot about my experience hoping that it will help someone. Now I am focusing on war against porn. I hope I will be successful too. Pray for me guys.

 

Nice to meet you, bro. I would like to hear more about your 500 days challenge. How much progress you have made recently ?

Thank you for sharing your experience. I thought I was only one who masturbated during Ramadan. I think there are many guys like us who masturbate during Ramadan.

Yes, we have to struggle more. We who are under 20 have just entered first stage of our life. We have power, stamina and courage. We must defeat it.

 

Thank you so much for your kind words. I would definitely search about it.

Yes, I am not addicted anymore. And I will become more stronger and determined in my life now. Love from Bangladesh.People in our country are crazy fans of Brazil football team.

 

Thank you, brother. Sorry for my late reply.
insha'Allah you will be successful too. You need just strong determination, dedication and some sacrifice.
Remember, no pain or effort will go unrewarded in long run.

 

Oolaikumas salam.
Of course. Why not ? I will be very pleased if you do so.

But can you connect me through Facebook or viber ? Actually I don't use Telegram or any social media.

 

Ok, I will connect you through it