Accountability for All

Got through day 6!

 

96 days no P!
7 days no MO!!

 

Day 94

No relapse just brain fog. No PMO
Twice MO in 4 days. Am now on zero O for a while. Believe Im flatlining anyway.

 

Day 0

 

Finished day 5, let's go!
I still have a headache and in general today was like a flatline... I'm not motivated to study, but I'm definitely motivated to continue my journey here. I'll need to find a balance soon, the important is that I keep my streak and hopefully things get better soon!

 

day 1 check in

 

Checking in, just got through day 7!

 

checking in

 

Haven't posted here for 2 weeks I relapsed. Back to day 1

 

Check-in

P: 8
M: 8
O: 34

So I have decided to check-in as if nothing has happened and to continue my streak even though I PMOd yesterday.

The reason for this is because I think there's a difference of opinion as to what I believe a "relapse" is. In my opinion, porn, masturbating or orgasming shouldn't be frowned upon as "wrong". It Just needs to be regulated and done in healthy amounts. In my opinion once a month of it is ok and probably doing something good anyways.

For this reason I'm committed to getting to 90 days Pmo but with the disclaimer that I'll be aiming to pmo once a month.

In my opinion a "relapse" is when you go on a rampage of Pmo and can't control it. The same as an alcoholic can still enjoy a drink in healthy amounts. But a relapse would be defined as going on a rampage of alcohol.

 

Day 13 in the list!! Making progress fighting to get myself back completely. Today in morning I was unable to focus on my study, ny urges were hitting me but i fought and continued my work. NO PAIN NO PROGRESS!!

 

Day 0

 

Day 1

 

Day 0: done. Almost one day

 

You can use a filter called: qustodio, and a chrome extension called:unhook youtube.
I doesn't make miracles, but It helps a LOT.

PS: there's bad stuff on Netflix as well. I think using youtube with those tools that I told you about is safer.

 

Finished day 6, I'm happy because I'm doing great so far (have been like home alone 5/6 days and could control my urges) but I'm also having a hard time with the withdrawal effects...

I wonder if this is a flatline, I have no motivation to live to be honest, but it seems to be too early to happen right? Anyways, I just need to continue and eventually things will go better (I hope).

 

day 2 check in

 

In my experience this mood swing is normal after some days, if you push through it and focus on improving other areas of your life it will most likely go away pretty soon!

What's wrong bro?

 

Just got through day 8! Very tough day today as I was searching something and one of the links unexpectedly had pornographic material. I felt blood rushing in my body and adrenaline going through with my heart racing, but with the control that I had I unplugged the internet and went outside to calm myself down. After fighting that I went into a deep depression and just had to lie down.

I think this is a great opportunity for transformation, and only shows how much of a hold pornography can have.