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The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.

Should the Thread Title be extended?

Poll closed Jun 21, 2020.
  1. No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    18 vote(s)
    54.5%
  2. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    15 vote(s)
    45.5%
  3. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    0 vote(s)
    0.0%
  4. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    5 vote(s)
    15.2%
  5. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    6 vote(s)
    18.2%
Multiple votes are allowed.
  1. modern milarepa

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  2. RiseToGreatness

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    of course you should delete everything you have, everything that´s connected to lust in a way or the other. as long you have something "stored" you´re keeping the addiction flame alive. not in a counscious way, but subconsciously, ultimately where the addiction abides.

    so delete everything my brother. give that sign that your conscious and subconscious mind: "i´m doing this for real".
     
  3. RiseToGreatness

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    Checking in Fellowship!!! :)

    Good day so far, taken my cold shower right in the morning, then did the wim hof breathing, but i push myself too much, eat breakfast in a hurry, and feel a bit drained in the end. not a good move.

    so in the future i will do one thing at a time, not in sequence. doing 2 things that requires a significant effort right in the morning it´s too much for me at the present moment. but i can see it´s definitely a good morning routine, once i have enough energy and motivation :)

    no urges or temptations, still in flatline.

    have a great day Fellowship!!! Stay in the path!!!

    Here´s some powerful stoic wisdom for the day :)


    "You can try to play it safe. We can try to stay off the radar. And guess what? You’ll still take heat. You’ll still get unlucky. You still won’t get any guarantees.

    Try not to be political...and you’ll get criticized for not being political. Try presenting the other side charitably...and you’ll get criticized for being soft. Try to stay loyal to your company...and you’ll eventually find out the loyalty goes only one way.

    As the expression goes, damned if you do, damned if you don’t. So what does a Stoic say about this reality? Do they throw up their hands? Do they embrace the nihilism of “What does any of it matter?” No. No, they don’t.

    A Stoic says, if I’m going to take heat, I might as well take heat for doing the right thing. If I am going to be unlucky, I might as well be unlucky while trying to do something I’m proud of. If I’m going down, I might as well go down swinging.

    That’s what Marcus Aurelius had to remind himself. He was a guy who was good, even though he could have gotten away with being awful. He was kind and forgiving, even though his friends didn’t always return the favor. He was hopeful, even as tragedy followed tragedy. Just that you do the right thing, he said, the rest doesn’t matter. Cold or warm. Tired or well-rested. Loved or despised. Rewarded or punished.

    Either way...do the right thing."
     
  4. til_im_free

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    Day 1...
    Two nights ago I relapsed. There's nothing to talk about, just bad self control, zero temperance. It's probably related with the final exams, but there's no excuses. I'm sad that I was a hobbit for only 2 days... quite a small journey.

    But lez do it again. Pray for me cuz the chaser effect is at my doorstep
     
  5. Kairose

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    Day 109 & 110!

    By the way: For those who don't know that videogames and anime makes it harder to quit PMO... Well, that.
     
  6. Mathman1994

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    It's been a while since I last posted. I am on day 7 no P, no MO. I was in the psychiatric hospital for 5 days, which helps stay clean when you cannot have your electronics, and you are checked on every 15 minutes. I had a psychotic break, and I realized I had been experiencing a subtle delusion for a number of months to cope with trauma from childhood as well as stress with finishing undergrad and starting grad school. My mind created two other personalities to cope. I don't dissociate or anything, I am always conscious of them and when I am switching, but I think that pornography helped me deal with a lot of my issues, and I have figured out a way to cope through working on a couple old novels, one of which I started when I was 13-14 years old, and the other which I started a couple years back. I am not going to say the characters names as if I did and I publish, then my anonymity would be gone. However, I picked these personalities from my writings over the years as they were safe. Did not realize I was doing it, but now I am aware and healing. It will take a lot to reintegrate my mind, but I have a wonderful treatment team.

    As my mind was cracking these last couple weeks, I spent 5-6 days binging pornography for between half an hour to two hours a day. I failed a homework assignment and an exam, and then I was hospitalized. I also realized that my sexuality is not healthy and my sisters' are not either. They blame our mom for that, but I am not sure.

    While in the hospital I was going through "withdrawal" from pornography and I really wanted to masturbate, but we had very little privacy. One time, I started to, but I could not even get to the edge of climax, I could not feel anything. It was as if my penis was not even apart of my body. It was hard, and that was about it. So after a few moments, I gave up, and then they called to let us know the next group was meeting so I relaxed, my horniness went away and I lost my erection. I had both my therapist and you all in my head as I battled whether to MO or not. In the end, I could not even start MO'ing beyond starting to touch myself. One thing I would like to make clear to myself, all of you, and especially my psycho therapist and sex therapist, is that I want to MO on my terms, if I MO at all, and I am not sure if my terms even involve MO. I don't believe in semen retention or any of that, but I do believe that a healthy sexuality for me involves no MO. When I MO, I think about pornography I have seen, and then I crave the "real thing". My therapist does not understand that, but I see him tomorrow, and I will make it clear to him. that while M'ing can be part of a healthy sexuality, I am not sure it is for me. I know my mom would get upset when I was young when she realized I was M'ing in the bathroom. and I think that jaded me away from MO, however, I also believe that once I deal with the trauma from childhood around sexuality, I may not be interested in MO.

    While I promised not to talk much about MO or even PMO when I returned on November 1st, I realized that I had to clear the air and be honest with you all. I am not morally opposed to MO, I think it is fine for some people, but I am personally opposed to it like many of you and I need to make that clear that if I MO or not, I want it to be my decision, not NoFap's, and especially not my treatment team's.

    Anyway, God bless ya'll.
    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  7. Cartographer

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    The online multiplayer was released as a beta! You can download it on Xbox or Steam for free, the campaign drops Dec 8!

    And it is good to be back! Will intend to be a bit more active (twice a week or so)
     
  8. Cartographer

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    Day 6,

    Fished for a while last night, but that is way better than what I wanted to do. When the urges hit like a tsunami I took action, and realizing that I had no control infront of my computer I decided to go to bed. In bed I fished on my phone for some time before realizing that this was the action I was trying to avoid on the computer. Read my book instead for a little before getting a good night's rest.

    Thank you for the support Fellowship!
     
  9. Prophet Moonstruck

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    Congratulations once again for the 90 days! you did it once, you will do it again, so no worries there Just get into Work god mode! Are you still doing the pull-ups, my man or I am left alone in the darkness? training by myself?
     
  10. Talz

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    Yes... In the past I would do this periodically, but always end up going back and be frustrated that I could not find certain videos again. I'm probably trying to avoid that, but it doesn't matter... I need to be done.

    I need to clean out my computer as much as possible.
     
  11. Talz

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    Thank you. I know I can do it again, it just took a lot out of me. It's always easier to just not relapse, that's for sure!

    Yes I am still doing pull-ups, but I can't do as many as you. It is probably because I haven't been working out that long and I also can't go to the gym where I live.
     
  12. rotten_tomato

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    Day 50
    Let Them Come! There Is One Dwarf Yet In Moria Who Still Draws Breath!

    Day 50 means that I'm a dwarf now! I'm proud of my achievement!
     
  13. Prophet Moonstruck

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    Day 75! My mind is all over the place for the last few weeks as I'm trying to stabilize it back to a central goal while everything shifts around. I'm quite amused and annoyed by some patterns I encounter in my life regarding work as it seems that every time I get into a job and get comfortable, as well as confident in knowing what I have to do, the stars realign, and I get switched to a different position.
    It is indeed nice to try new stuff and learn to be secure on that also, but usually, that does not entail higher pay just a different set of attributions which I never sign up to? but have to, since money has to come from somewhere and I know that this messes up with my mind, body, and habits as I see my mind dropping into a weird frenzy where the energy and repetition is blocked by thoughts that have no reason to be there... I'm a little excited about the prospect of this new job since it will be on the 3rd shift which will most surely mess with my circadian rhythm, but at the same time, it does have the potential to open new unexplored territories so wish me luck on it!
    My interest in women is quite low and it does not bother me that much, since there are many things I like to focus on without being distracted. My NoAlcoholNovember is also on point, though I did get more and more secluded for the most part. One last thing I want to try before the month is over and that remains the dopamine detox.
    Stay strong on the waters of change and ye shall be like Jesus or whatever deity/non-deity/hero you admire. Good Night my future Emperors!
     
  14. Prophet Moonstruck

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    I am proud of your achievement as well Young Dwarf!
     
  15. crazyhorse11

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    Really really appreciate your honesty. You are very self aware and have identified the elephant in your subconscious with those files. Keep posting here man. Pick your time to start the next streak. Observe yourself now and see that really and truly P is suffering, deep suffering over pixels on a screen representing poor souls in the depths of hell. Then when you are ready to take the path to freedom, delete those poisonous files.
     
    Last edited: Nov 23, 2021
  16. crazyhorse11

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    Well done man. I'd celebrate this, then pause, reflect and prepare for the next 50.
     
  17. 蘭泊8888

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    Day 4. Had a pretty huge fight with my girlfriend yesterday. We've been together for almost 4 years now but something is just not right with the way feelings are just becoming numb. Anyway, everything else seems to be going smoothly so i guess I'll just go with the flow and see.
     
  18. crazyhorse11

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    Second day - really want to get beyond 90 days this time. Incredible how clear the mind is now compared to what it will be when the urges flood in after a week or two. Seriously considered planning to use M in the future as a pressure valve to keep me away from P, but I don't think it will work that way. I just wonder are us single guys putting ourselves under too much pressure by no MO and does this then lead to worse relapses later. Thoen I read some forums on life energy depletion and POIS and realised that it's my brain playing habitual tricks after decades of getting a fix. Rewiring is the only way to freedom and a new beginning, and rewiring is not possible with out first of all a detox, and second of all year or so of abstinence. I guess the risk with using MO as a pressure valve on that journey, is that we stoke the desire for P. Anyone else have thoughts on this?
     
  19. crazyhorse11

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    Thank you so much for sharing
     
  20. crazyhorse11

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    Are you in the rage stage of withdrawl? I usually get quite angry on the 4th or 5th day when the dopamine from the last relapse ebbs away. If it is this then take care of yourself - eat lots of protein and dark chocolate to compensate for the low levels of dopamine. Sleep sleep sleep, and realise that when people close to you are pissing you off, it is probably just you projecting your anger and self judgement onto them.
     

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