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Half A Year Of Abstinence

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by BigBadWolf_27, Nov 22, 2021.

  1. BigBadWolf_27

    BigBadWolf_27 Fapstronaut

    If someone would told me one hundred and eighty days ago that I will withstand that long without orgasm or pleasurable sessions of jerking off to porn, I would say that it's an abstract vision...

    Looking back at the early days - creating new habits, some sort of discipline to stay awake and mindful... I feel nostalgic at times. And guess what? My approach is still the same. For me every new day is a day one. I'm not going back to porn or even masturbation ever again. I don't need it.

    I had a three wet dreams along the way, besides of that I was staying away from most sources of artificial stimulation. It's hard to start when you're socially anxious person, without any serious plans for the future and goals in life. I was scared to actually get out of my house at the start of this journey. I was paralyzed. Now I'm feeling good socializing with people and stepping out of my comfot zone. I'm still feeling awkward at times, but it's a whole different kind of anxiety. I've opened to the world around me.

    I'm a sentimental person. Some people around me don't understand it. Since my childhood I was... different. Shy and quiet, but also curious and sensitive. There was a time in my life when I though that my confidence and self-worth is determined by the amount of words I spoke. I realized that it's simply not true. I like silence. I like my own company. And I'm proud of that, because that makes me special.

    When you stop jerking off on regular basis... Well, something changes within you. You start to notice this little things around, knowing that you was too damn numbed before to bother... And there is no longer a easy way out to escape from problems. At times I was really struggling with emotions. A few times I was collapsing under the shower, crying like a baby, feeling mentally destroyed. Still, at the end of the bath I was pouring a cold water at myself, meditating before sleep, trying to calm down and telling myself - "You came too far to give up now, everything will fall into place soon..."

    Everyone around is asking - "What's the secret of maintaining a long streak?" There is not such thing as simple fix. I would say that it's the faith. I'm not talking about religion stuff. You need to simply believe that you can persevere through hard times. You need to believe in yourself, in your willpower adn your "mission". You don't need to believe me, but I knew right from the start that I will change.

    My life is looking different. I passed the driving test and get my license, my worse nightmare since I can remember. I'm comfortably driving around on my own, finally feeling a little bit more independent. I felt how it's like to enjoy company of a "real woman", not the pixelated one. That one night - cuddling, talking and finally kissing was worth that few months of total abstinence back there, I can tell you that...

    I started to attend parties with my friends and accidentally became a soul of the company... I felt that extra energy within me, people around also noticed that. I developed sense of a true courage... I'm training every day to eliminate worries and redundant amount of anxiety out of my life. I even applied for a job recently... Well, it didn't worked out that well but I learned something because of that. I had a great opportunity to form a relationship with girl. I realized that it's not really the time for me to try this out, but again, I gained extra knowledge about myself... I learned how to cope with failure less harshly. My mental, physical and spiritual sides are improved. I'm grateful for every single day. I'm feeling happy like a kid without any particular reason most of the time. And it's beautiful. My old self would not recognize me now...

    A few months back these things would be out of my reach. I was fapping my worries away, wasting my energy and time doing stupid things. My lack of motivation, determination and excess of anxiety were holding me back. Now at least I'm trying... It's not an easy journey. It requires willpower, dedication and resilience. But the benefits are incredible and worth it. You just need to be willing to give something in order to gain something in return. If you lack a sense of purpose in life it's worth a shot, trust me. It's never too late to change.

    It's not a challenge, it's a lifestyle...
     
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  2. Congratulations brother.
    Reading your post motivates me to fight as hard as I can against this addiction.
    God bless you.
     
  3. Many thanks for this post. Congratulations!
     
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  4. Xheir77

    Xheir77 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for the post brother. I agree with you that it's a lifestyle.
     
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  5. Yes sir, I think you’ve got it.

    Love today, seize all tomorrows.
     
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  6. silex_jedi

    silex_jedi Fapstronaut

    it's funny because... 180 days... that's half a year ! that's two times 90 days... i just wanted to say it.
     
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  7. Zapster21

    Zapster21 Fapstronaut

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  8. Wolf488

    Wolf488 New Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for posting this is really motivating to all of us reading, keep it up! Wish you all the best my friend
     
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  9. wicket

    wicket Fapstronaut

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    That's the spirit! Thanks
     
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