[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 46

 

Day 0 of not being a slave to my desires.

 

Day 0. Starting again. Never surrender.

 

I remember learning about the writing things down thing in CBT now. I had forgotten, so thanks for the reminder.

 

Day 12 and 13/90

 

Day 0,

 

Day 0, need to get past that week milestone and I believe the annoying chaser effect will be gone, been on a toxic cycle of relapses lately but will break out of it now.

 

Day 10 of 90 no P
Day 10 of 90 no alcohol

 

Day 8 of 90

 

Day 1

Worked today. Feel in a fog... only partly present. I guess that's how it'll be for awhile. I managed to get through my first day though, which is good. It's sure rainy here lately.

My goal right now is to get my workout routine going again, although I will probably be tweaking it a bit throughout the week to get to what works for me in my present state. I would like to feel back on track with that though.

 

Day 66



I like School of Life videos - good ideas and advice on relationships, friendship and a lot more important life topics

 

Day 1/90

 

Day 5

 

Day 6

 

Day 0

 

Day 1

 

I failed at day 6..
This was one of my worst relapses in months. I felt like crap and that lead me to P. Now I feel even worse, of course.
I watched P the entire night. I didn't have much sleep at all. This is bad. Completely f*cked up.
What is it that I want to acheive with this type of destructive behaviour? I wasn't even turned on by any of what I saw.

I will not allow this to happen again. It's just wrong and I am capable of doing so much better.

Day 0

 

Day 62/90

 

Day 4/90. Finals coming up next week I know my urges will try and get the best of me down the road before final exam day. I'll need to keep posting here and start reading forums and people's post. Struggle is real. Keep fighting.

 

Day 47