The Lord of the Rings Challenge

82 days have passed! It seems that karma is clearing up and the universe is trying to shake me down from ridding it. An interesting experience, that makes me curious of where this will take me.
Have a great evening everyone! May we be blessed with another breath to follow our path.

 

It is not really a thing to worry about, but an opportunity to monitor your thoughts and see which of them (categories like work, school, friends, plans, girls etc) are more numerous throughout the whole day and which of them get to stay the longest undisturbed by the things you should've actually focus on. If you are thinking about bedroom fun, nakedness and stuff, then you have to recenter and get a new thing to learn or think about. If you have these things randomly, without thinking of tempting situations, it might be the case that you had some ideas things that you wanted to get into, but didn't put all the effort you could've put... Am I right?
I'm mostly asking for I'm trying to find if there is a certain pattern to these wet dreams if actions like fishing or ogling on insta butts are not involved.

 

Day 4

Another long day at work, but found myself feeling optimistic throughout so it went like a breeze!

It’s been nearly 4 months since I broke up with my ex, and I’m now at the point where I feel comfortable with the idea of beginning a new relationship - I just need to be careful if I do begin one to do so for the right reasons. These desires for emotional intimacy haven’t helped the urges to relapse, but they are pointing me in the right direction to what I ultimately want - a healthy and sustaining relationship.

 

For me is understanding the line and difference between external and internal.

What you want, what you do, how you feel, what you choose or love it's inside of you, you have a lot of power on all of that.

External, on the other hand, its independent of you. What others think, do, etc; what might happen to you or someone around you.
In the end (being extreme to prove my point) any of us might die or have an accident in an hour... So it doesn't make any sense to worry about external outcomings, you should just do the best you can and be happy about it. Independently of the results, they are not in your hands.

That's my way to see it!

 

Day 38. Struggling lately. Trying to push through

 

Day 289

 

Can’t wait to see brother He-Man make it to Day 500. Way to go! You have the power!

 

Day 1 complete.

Reset the counter yesterday for peeking at porn, though thankfully I did not masturbate. A tough challenge calls for strict guidelines. I wrestled with the idea of holding myself accountable for this but it's the little things that are going to make the biggest difference. The struggles and hardships of a reboot (and perhaps the effort to change our brain chemistry as well) can lead to some big emotional dips and swings, but I still truly believe I can be healed from this and find my freedom. It's only a matter of time.

St. Andrew the Apostle, pray for us!

 

Day 2.
We made a deal with a friend that we will help each other reach 10 days.

 

Mission accomplish
Day 500

Thank you everyone for the support, its impossible without you my brothers.

 

Congratulations Brother! You Have the power! A great day for everyone to remember! Your presence in our lives in these times has created another building block to be settled in the pyramid of time, of the future, and of today! Thank you!

 

Day 83! Woke up at 5:30 AM this morning! I have passed the 10:30 PM mark yesterday and it shows that I'm getting distracted, removing the importance of the priority of going to sleep at that hour seems to easily mess with the rest of the next day, so I should be careful.
Today also marks the end of the No Alcohol November so I can go out again, without having to fear temptation.
I wish you one of the greatest days my brothers!

 

3 days

Amazing Bro, you did it! Huge congratulations! May you never turn back to porn again! And thank you very much for being such a strong inspiration!

 

Good take. I guess I have to learn to be more okay with a wider variety of outcomes rather than things going my preferred way. Maybe I just want to script my life too much, I don't know. I often will fantasize and envision how things will go far in advance, yet it usually won't go nearly as good as that...

 

Congrats man. Another White Wizard! You know that people are going to ask you how you did it.

 

Day 4

Slept in unfortunately... Then I ended up falling asleep again during the day.

I worked a lot of days in a row, have had to get up earlier than normal and am early into a new reboot so maybe it'd make sense that I'm tired. I will not be able to fall asleep on time tonight though. Oh well... I could have much worse problems.

Not feeling the greatest inside. Pretty depressed today. I think though it has a lot to do with readjusting to the reboot process again.

I didn't do much today... Had a warm bath to relax, but I probably shouldn't do that this early into the reboot.

 

Day 2

I just hate how much the first week take from me.
I’m still here, but I almost relapsed like 10 times yesterday.

 

Day 13 - Uruk-Hai, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

Congratz bro! Well deserved!!

 

Orc - Day 2