I can't get past 3 weeks (rant)

Learn why you are relapsing. Ask for forgiveness and try again. Dont bash yourself it only makes it worse.

 

We have all been there. There is always an underlying reason for addiction. Find it. Is it loneliness, rejection, bad habits overall, lack of purpose, and when you find your reason start working on that part of your life. Do not listen to the addicted brain and its excuses.

 

Maybe instead of trying to figure out why you relapse (even though it's important), figure out why you even want to stop first. And then strive to live a life based on your "why" for quitting. You said you turned back to God. That could be a why. Just try to find your reason why you want to live a life PMO-free, and then go after that.

 

try this out: hand-copy the Bible when you want to masturbate. I believe God will give you power to quit beating meat.

 

Bro you need more than a kitten to feel purpose. Are you working or in a school? Do you have hobbies in which you want to get better? Do you have a passion for something? All of these are essential and everyone has their own. If you do not you should do your best to find them.

 

Why can't you love and trust God's mercy even as a weak person who falls into sin and PMO? Isn't that a very ideal time to love and have God in the first place? Why blaspheme on top of PMO?

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God always love you. Come back to him and he will help you. There is no sin that he couldn't forgive. All you need to do is to trust in him. Try to go to the Church on Sunday. I think you will feel better. I just convert to Catholic this year. After baptized, I could feel that the devil which used to enslave me 20 years in lust and porn were being forced out of me. Lust is no longer the master of myself. I do not need any willpower to restrain the urge to watch porn because there is no urge at all. I will pray for you.

 

There is no sin that cannot be forgiven in this life - as long as you still have breath within you and are repentant. The Holy Spirit blasphemy in the Gospel is often misinterpreted in Scripture. Here the Priests were saying that Jesus was possessed of an unclean spirit when they precisely knew his power was from God. In other words, there was no sign or miracle or Gospel message or anything that would ever make them acknowledge Jesus as the Christ, even though they saw the truth. They purposely made themselves obstinate in their sin, for which reason it could never be forgiven, for they were not and never would be sorry, a condition that makes forgiveness impossible when one persists like this until death - which is called "final impenitence." This is the greatest sin against the Holy Spirit, who comes to forgive sin in mercy. What a rejection of the Holy Spirit so as to never repent or be sorry or never ask for forgiveness and thereby die in that state. However, this is not the same as swearing out of anger, although I would indeed try to avoid any curse against God in the future. Yet, if your heart can be sorry for even this sin and you are repentant in this life, then even your blasphemy is forgivable by God. You can enjoy God's mercy again and repent of this. Why don't you do so as a Christmas gift to yourself this year. Come home to Jesus this Christmas.

 

How is your diet? Do you enjoy cooking? I know people will tell that making videos etc is good but you do not want to spend all your life in front of a computer. Do you go for walks in forests? Or walks at all?

About the blasphemy; it is the devil in your head telling that you are not forgiven. But blaming God for you falling in to sin is not Gods fault. Own up to your mistakes, ask for forgiveness and change behavior. You might still fall but get back up, ask for forgiveness and continue. To repent is to try and try again. Have you discussed this with your family or friends?

 

Brother. You say you've tried everything, but I'll tell you what: You've been on an 82 day streak. That is something most of us haven't done. You're probably a lot stronger than any of us here. I don't want to come off as rude or anything. But maybe the thing you need to try is to change your attitude. It's obvious you want to quit because otherwise you wouldn't be so frustrated with yourself, so stop saying that you can't quit. You can. And here's something I heard about the whole Holy Spirit thing: If you still have a conscience. If you still have desires to be good, then God still wants you. God still wants to forgive you. The only person that can stop you from getting better is YOU. You need to forgive yourself. God wants to forgive you. Remember when Jesus says that you He can't forgive if we don't forgive men their trespasses? I think that includes ourselves. We're part of mankind. This shame that you have doesn't work, man. You have to leave that behind. It's only going to hold you back. From your examples, it seems like everything you've tried has been more outer things. But it takes an inner change to truly get away from this stuff. Please don't shame yourself anymore. Turn to the way that God wants you to live. He's there with open arms.

 

Try doing something to relieve stress that isn't sexual. Like reading, going for walks, coloring, breathing exercises, etc. I myself find coloring in adult coloring books to be really relaxing and meditative. Doing it while listening to music is especially relaxing. Find something that doesn't involve a screen. I'm agnostic myself, but I'm trying to find faith in God. It's just hard for me. I used to practice the faith, but I'm bad at being consistent with reading the bible and praying everyday and can't fully bring myself to believe in a God. This world is becoming more secular these days.

 

You seem spend a lot of time online....If you want to quit PMO, try to surf the web LESS as possible as you can. Many webpages are full of unhealthy contents which are easily triggering sexual drive.

Have you read the Bible every day? You can't just pray for God to help you. It is not enough. You need to Read the Bible OUT LOUD at least 30 minutes every day. And hand-copy the paragraphs you read. By doings this, you will graduately quit PMO. I always hand-copy Heart Sutra (a Buddhist Sutra). It always works for me. I believe the bible will do the same. Good luck!