I want to kill myself

This video have saved lives, maybe you'll benefit from it. Btw it's not only for muslims

 

You gotta search for God brother. Go study different religions. Christianity, islam etc.

You know I've been in a long depression before, and I only found peace when I prayed.

 

Look man, you need this hard mode reboot.

I hope you are starting to see that being upset, getting depressed
will not change things.
You have to make these changes, by investing in yourself.
You are down on yourself, I was there a very long time.

Remember that your thinking is distorted.
Everybody in recovery gets bent like that.
We created dangerous habits, and we messed our minds up.
The reboot is going to get your mind straight.

It's a lot of pain and suffering,
but it will make the kind of changes that will help you.

Because if you took that negative energy and invested it
into the reboot, things are going to start to change.

Believe in the process. Lean into it.
This is an investment in yourself. It will power you to reach your goals.

You are not a waste.
You are helping me, as well as the other dudes here.
When you write posts, other guys are thinking about what worked for them.
That makes them stronger and wiser.
You are even helping me right now, you might not realize it.

I want you to start a hard mode reboot tomorrow.
Every time you think you will use PMO, don't do it.
Every time you say no, it gets a little easier.

 

i use to get these feelings an thoughts too, but i spoke to my closest friends about it, i told them i want to die, an they asked bunch of questions, main point is, they pulled the questions out of me on why , later i didnt really feel like killing mself no more, iam referring to in person friends , not online or anyting. need to vocalize your thoughts an feelings , get that garbage our your system so the universe can easily depose it

 

i grew up in pooor, traumatic environments so im no stranger to such darkness, one of the reasons for my pmo addiction, an escape from it , or something to make me feel better, etc. I realized i dont need to be doing something to make myself feel better, i just keep walking till its not part of my life.The depression keeps clawing at me , jumping at me , i just shake it off an keep walking

 

I think you should be with your family. Dont isolate yourself. Speak about how you feel with people, go for a terapist if you have not.

I remember being so exhausted and numb and at the same time feeling like shit. After work I would just collapse to a park bench from tiredness and sorrow in heart. It was because of a girl. I thought that there is no way I get over it. But I did. And ever since then I am so much better in every way possible. Life has those ultimate lows and sometimes it feels like all hope is lost. But time will heal wounds and you will grow stronger.

What are you doing in your day to day life that makes you that tired?

 

yes you are in a dark place , pitch blackness ahead of us ,sides of us, behind us, but look within your self , we all shine bright within, we are all supernovas flaring across the dark vast universe 1000 miles a hour,

 

Alot of support for you here. Its easy to get bogged down with the idea that no one cares. There are many others feeling the same way. We are all here for you and deep down hoping for others to be there for us. Community is important, and you were brought here for a reason.

Will pray for you and your journey. Feel free to message if you need someone to chat with.

 

You've been given your life to experience and learn from suffering.

There was a period in my life (lasted ~2 years) of deep despair, anger, and self-hatred. My closest friends (simultaneously) blocked me from all contact with them - after I relentlessly vented to them and begged them for support. (Not really venting, more like a rabid dog barking 24/7 in DMs. Insults, threats, begging them for their pity. I often spammed thousands of messages a day, over the course of 5-10 hours. It got really nasty, and it's nauseating to re-read the stuff I sent them.)

I often fell into "daydreams" lasting half a day or longer, where I'd just become paralyzed with thoughts of ending my life, hurting myself, and imagining all the ("glorious") pity I'd get from people if I did that stuff. I wanted to be free, but I felt like I was behind a hundred thick walls. Any effort I put into breaking one wall would just lead to more despair.

I honestly cannot believe I overcame it. Somewhere down the line, days started getting better.

And the happiness that brings is the greatest happiness a human can experience. Fighting for years and winning. Seeing challenges and feeling deep gratitude for them. It brings a person authentic bliss.

Life is all about clearing up your fog. All suffering pays off; every moment of strength is logged - and pays off eventually.

 

I was in Porto / Portugal some weeks ago. Alone. Empty. Lonely. I stood on that bridge. I almost did it. Then I suddenly felt a strong urge to live a good life. I back to the AirBnB and told myself:
My will to continue is higher than this bridge! This is also when I decided I want to stop porn. Had 2 relapes in this time, but did 11 days for the first time since 30 years! Success comes in small doses. Life will be good. Death is no option.

 

God blesses you

 

Quizás esté 2022 las cosas mejoren en algunos aspectos, lo importante es que agradezcamos eso, y confiemos en seguir adelante...Te deseo lo mejor

 

how is your nofap going? What is your streaks looking like?

 

Why do you believe your ugly ? You realise everyone is a haircut/workout/skincare routine/self care/style change away from a beautiful person.

You’re not a pussy. You want to live….everyone fucking wants to live. You were given a life. You’re supposed to make the most out of it, not ruin it….or waste it.

Btw tinder is bullshit. Its a scam to make you waste money. They only show you the matches/likes of the lowest rated people.

PM me if you want….I can try to help you feel better

 

Why you do not answer my question? Also educate yourself on mewing, you can change your face to be more attractive changing the structure of it. Also nofap will make your skin look better and get rid of the dark circles under eyes.

 

Then whats wrong with your face ?

Too chubby ?
Disproportionate ( big nose etc) ?
Wrinkly ?
Droppy ?
Bad structure ?