35 and older accountability, Group 2

75 days for me. I hope you are all staying strong!

 

Hello, I'm checking in here. All I can say right now is that I haven't done very well. But I'm going to keep trying.

 

update...

After 2.5 yrs I had a sexual encounter with a girl i have been seeing as friends for the past 2 months. No penetration even though it came close but overall sexual exchange and play took place.

I then found myself relapsing back a little the next day not to porn but to lust. I reached out to another girl who I could play with but then I found myself in a very painful state. I realized I was lacking thoughtfulness towards the girl I have started to see because even though we are not officially boyfriend and girlfriend, never the less, I know there is genuine affection taking place between us and i wouldn't want her to be sleeping around while getting to know me, so why would i sleep around.

Then i reached out to the 2nd girl who showed interest in playful exploration and admitted my fault and we cleared that and closed the loop. I instantly felt a release and feeling of being back to the kingdom of heaven within

I learned through this experience, that for me the best way is to relate to one person who i genuinely have an appreciation to get to know and evolve. I saw the temptation to become a playboy and to use my capacities to attract many girls to have sex with but i had the same feeling i would get when I was watching porn.

There is no difference between porn watching and sleeping with many girls, it is the same lust energy.

so my NoFap journey is now helping me in my relationship to commit to one person and not distract my focus and energy. This way i can channel my life force to the higher purpose of my mission, instead of wasting my life away.

 

Checking in, 26 days.

 

Checking in! so far so good!

 

Day 80 checking in. I was very close to relapsing on my goal of no PMO but I didn't. I am very thankful to God and I am going to make some positive changes in my life right away to prevent relapse!

 

Day 60 no P! Wow!

 

I have had a relapse.

 

.... and you got right back up again. No more slipping the rest of the year, easy!

 

I have read the rules and would like to join this group

 

Relapsed today for no reason at all :\

Steeling myself for another 45-60 days...today was a pretty bad day at work and generally unproductive... i think thats why the mood was a bit gloomy and i kinda lost myself to temptation. First time i visited a porn website since 2 months-ish ago... hope today was just a 1 time slip...

 

Thanks! I started in December and came to the decision of no PMO for the rest of the year on to a 90 day reboot. The bigger goal for me is strictly no P and a healthy sexual lifestyle with a partner. I've been using as many tools as I can to reinforce healthy habits and keep relapses at bay. A supportive community is important, I see that now. Glad to be here!

 

Thank you and happy Holidays as well. NoFap and this group has really helped me with my addictions, I want to keep it going!

 

Let me know if you want an accountability partner!

 

Nice post, and good attitude.

 

I’ve been doing good the last 10 days. Improved my filters again. Been staying busy and taking care of myself. Been stopping myself in the moment by saying how much I don’t want to risk losing my job by using porn on my work computer.

 

I have had a relapse so reset my counter. So far have been doing OK since Dec 22.