The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Feeling good with day 1! I got one of those wacky Demicubes yesterday, it's like a Rubix cube but 10x weirder looking and cooler, it could probably serve as a good distraction for me during cravings since every time I pick it up I hyper fixate on it and lose track of time. For now though I'll stick with working out when I get cravings. See you all for day 2!

 

Checking in day 39. Had a good breakfast, went to the hospital for a check up...well they didn't find anything wrong.Spent there full day visiting different specialists and had a lot of time to read which I used well. Prayed and walked quite a bit.

 

37-Elf

Nice day, could be more productive and last hours have very little energy but hey-we are so close to Christmas!

—Side Quests—
Workout - Check
ColdShower - Check
HealthyDiet - Check
Learning - Fail
SideProject - Fail
Gratitude - Check
Meditation - Check
NoAlcohol - Check
NoYoutube - Check
PhoneLimit - Check
—Perfect_Streak:

 

Day 12!
I was a lot of time outside, so is always dificult to dont look to beautiful girls, that always make this path more dificut, but the urges still low at this hour of the day.

Keeping strongh and always thinking: Think in sex just while having sex

 

Day 311

 

Day 9 done!

I am doing much better this streak, because I am trying to control these smaller behaviours that leed to PM, like looking at attractive profiles on social media, and some of my thoughts.

So I did look at some profiles, but it was more out of curiosity, but still a bad habit.

The worst thing right now is my thoughts, they are a bit wild. I don’t simply imagine having sex, but I imagine scenarious that could lead to wild sex in real life. I think these thoughts are with me since my wife told me she wants a divorce when we had a serious fight. I wasn’t affected by it at first. We are all good now, I forgave her, but the thoughts remain. Any tips on uprooting them?

 

Day 2 - Orc, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

Around age 16: Webcam'd with girl from school. She told me she couldn't see me. I PMO'd, she puked.
age 23: Met a 17-y/o girl online. After she found out I'm still a virgin, she fucked her neighbour.
age 24/25: Several Tinder dates
1st girl, 5/10: couldn't get it up.
2nd girl, 3/10 (an overweight, short-haired woman that recently gave birth): got semi-hard but didn't reach orgasm.
3rd girl, beatiful 8/10: got semi-hard and reached orgasm. But the guy she was dating in parallel was just better. She even gave him head short before meeting with me and kissing me. I could taste it, very humiliating.
4th girl: not even a kiss
1st girl again: not even a kiss
5th girl: My girlfriend now since 4 years. I love her and will probably propose next year. But the sex has been bad/non-existing and I suspect she's PMOing regulary.

That's my sex life so far, apart from porn of course. I can tell you, being this bad at sex as a narcissist is quite a pain sometimes. But it feels good talking about it, thanks for reading.

 

Here’s my account for yesterday. Felt low energy so took it easy.

I’m not completely sure why but I’ve had some trouble falling asleep lately. It usually goes pretty quick from jumping into bed until I start sleeping but lately it has been taking probably 30 min at least.

1. Stay accountable. Done
2. Physical exercise. Average
3. Qigong or meditation. Not done
4. Eating in moderation. Done
5. Study about the reboot. Average
6. Get 8 hours of sleep. Not done

 

gogogo for my 20th day

 

Yeah bro, it's like everyone's story and everyone had quite an unhappy relationships which made an impression that we were the victims of circumstances in our lives.It's all because of the inability to think clearly and to stick to our dreams faithfully, because of certain ignorance and actions out of it. If we were stuck to the truth not only when it's easy but all of the time we would have completely different lives. And it's never too late to start thinking clearly, to have a dream to live for and to seek the light of right knowledge to make it happen.

 

Day 12! Some minor setbacks but day 12 is going to be fire!

 

Start with meditation to become aware of them and that you are not your thoughts, continue with a prayer to direct your thoughts in the desired direction and follow faithfully your hearts consciousness on what is right.

 

Slider's right here, knowing yourself and your goals is important for you. knowing your goals can change your diet, lifestyle or even physical or emotional appearance and that make your sex life better and more engaging. And do not settle for something that does the opposite of motivating you, look towards your inner light and see where that guides you.

 

Slider's right here, knowing yourself and your goals is important for you. knowing your goals can change your diet, lifestyle or even physical or emotional appearance and that make your sex life better and more engaging. And do not settle for something that does the opposite of motivating you, look towards your inner light and see where that guides you.

 

Maybe it's not that bad. You can use this time for going over coming day in you mind, over your plans, ask some questions and try to put your imagination into use, you don't need to sleep to do that, do you?

 

You know-without all those you wouldn’t be who you are right now so try to see things from bright side-I know that all of us struggle and it’s not easy for sure, but I know some folks born in 91/92 who haven’t experienced even single date, some even not tasted kiss at all-and on top of that they are far from ready to even start NoFap adventure so appreciate Bro what you’ve achieved till now-and I can clearly see that you are doing great work!
Keep progressing and you will soon notice that your next achievements will be even greater than previous-which are already huge deal worth respecting for many-me included.
Always try look on the bright side Man!

 

Checking in friends - Elf now - Thanks be to God

The more I do these streaks, the more I see patterns on the timing of the urges. When I hit 30 days the urges, which were practically non existent for Week 2 - Week 4, started arising again.
I am starting to think that memory recalls the deep imprint/ trauma that P causes at cyclical times as these are when the urges seem worse

1 day later
1 week later
1 month later
3 months later
6 months later
1 year later

The yearly one is definitely true, because every end of Oct/ Nov and every end of Mar/ Apr I get hit bad every year.

Conversely my memory also recalls the streaks e.g. the experience of a 120 day streak from Nov-Apr last year.

So I guess getting through the bad urges is not only beneficial from the perspective of not relapsing, it is also beneficial to our brain-muscle memory as when an urge arises our brains can recall how we managed them the last time. I guess each victory over temptation, isn't just about that particular battle, it is also huge progress on our way to winning the war.

 

Day 304 no PMO. Had a few temptations yesterday. Last night right before bed I was watching YouTube when my wife decided to go sleep in the room with my daughter. Temptation started to creep in but I paused and reminded myself of how I would feel after if I fell to PMO. I got up and put my phone on the other side of the room, prayed and went to sleep.