nearly 1 week!

Day 9

I guess today is the same as yesterday. Nothing new to report. It rained all day and I am completely beat. It's been a busy weekend.

I have been sensing some urges. At least I have been able to control them. Its mainly a "I wouldn't mind a fap" sort of thing. Nothing that's triggered me just the thoughts. Well, I was home alone for a little while in the evening.

I am ready for bed and am laying there now. Just have an email to send and I may watch some southpark. Could use a good night's rest.

 

Day 12

Still going strong and haven't relapsed. Been having temptations the last few days. The weather is affecting me for sure as well. Warm in the day and cold at night. Makes me tired and lazy. As far as that goes I know if I relapse I will binge it all away. I am still happy I nearly made it 2 weeks. Haven't made it this far since april. Feeling strong, just I can tell the adrenaline isn't there. Now comes the challenge.

 

Day 19

I've completed 18 days. I haven't been writing anything else here just because I was either busy, or there was nothing to report.

I felt on track like nothing could bother me. As far as my streak was going I was just rolling through adding more days. I had little temptations mainly "I haven't done it in a while."

I know it's my mind playing tricks on me, and if I relapse once I lose my progress and I will go on binging.

The weather got shitty again so it's hard to move around and do stuff. Last year this time I remember being really best and sad. For now I haven't fapped for a few weeks so I will see if I feel the same way or not. Then I'd know it had something to do with pmo.

One last thing which is why I decided to write here is that I am starting to get urges. This morning I laid in bed wanting to fap. Then I got to do some work and it went away. Sadly, now it's bad and I just feel a tingly sensation. It's pretty tough and it's making me think about this whole reboot thing. What am I really trying to get out of it, and will I honestly be able to quit forever? This is what I'm thinking lately. But for now I am going to get back to work and spend time with family so I don't relapse.

18 days down! Haven't made it this far since April