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Note: Suggestions are widely accepted and appreciated.

Only one question: is cold turkey too dangerous that someone can die from it because I read some posts regarding the dangerous effects of cold turkey on excessive alcohol addicts and also some posts that say PMO = alcohol in terms of brain damage.

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Hello Everyone, I request all of you to please carefully read the whole comment.

You all are great and have been doing well to get rid of PMO addiction. I have already explained all about my childhood to the date I started NoFap in my profile's information tab. But since I started NoFap I have been having some severe chaser effect and anxiety related to withdrawal symptoms. I every time promise myself that this is the last time in my life that I am doing PMO but this 'last time' is everlasting. I had streaks like this (this declares the number of days b/w each relapse) (from 03-11-19) 28 4 1 0 1 0 1 1 1 3 0 11 0 4 (to 28-12-19). But I am relapsing time to time even after knowing the fact that it will make my withdrawal symptoms worse. In my last streak of 11 days, in the first seven days I experienced some severe withdrawal symptoms and on day 8th, 9th and 10th it kept on improving and thus the urges to PMO went extremely uncontrollable.

Another thing that I noticed in my relapses were that each relapse went in the following procedure:
sudden urge > searching beautiful models > searching their hot pics > searching for women to whom I used to fap earlier > searching for porn > searching for extreme BDSM porn > watching 2 or more of same > precum> edging 5 to 15 minutes > ejaculate (relapsed)... > relapsed again on the same day or next day > abstain for few days and repeat from step 1.

It has been affecting me physically, mentally, socially, academically and somehow financial in long terms but I feel great on calculating that for almost past 2 to 3 yrs, I had been PMOing every day for 4 to 6 times. But since I started NoFap I PMOed only 13 times in 52 days averaging 1 PMO in 4 days which was earlier 4 PMO in 1 day. So this calculation somehow proves me to feel happy.

As I stated earlier the only thing that makes me relapse is urges and what frightens me after relapse is withdrawals despite the fact that I only had this withdrawal after starting NoFap and I also had all tests to check my health condition and all results prove me healthy.

I only want some suggestions/discussions/perceptionsn of all of you regarding my journey. I updated my track resetting it to 0 on 29-12-2019 (00:00) IST and promise myself, god, parents and to all well-wishers that I am going to be the strongest version of myself from now. Here are the key things I need to do as I suppose:

1) PMO free until required by some inappropriate conditions
2) urges free ... will definitely start meditating soon.
3) more spiritual - pray to god every day.
4) being hygienic.
5) eating healthy and drinking healthy.
6) Do some walking, pushups, etc. every day.
7) See every man and woman with respect and not objectifying women and men.
8) overwrite images of PMO in the brain with something healthy (toughest).
9) study a lot and smartly too, read newspapers.
10) getting healthy sleep.
11) stop counting NoFap days (one of the major factors that ignite relapses).
12) only visit NoFap on Sundays at 17:00 to 17:15 (IST).
13) making my inner subconscious full of positivity.
14) helping other people and denying my friends to show me hot Instagram pics or discussing about GFs.
15) look into only the eyes of women and not staring them.

At last, I want to become that innocent studious courageous strong will-powered, high stamina child that I used to before I discovered PMO and become the strongest version of myself.

Note: I would also request you to please read my journal or information tab about my past addictions so that you can better understand my problem and help me in a much better way. On the basis of all my addictions and past tries, will someone guide me with the best possible techniques or way to get myself recovered and I will visit nofap every Sunday from 17:00 to 17:15 to 17:30 IST to discuss progress.

This is the best I can promise to myself and do.

I WILL WIN, MAYBE NOT ON 'DAY ONE', BUT DEFINITELY 'ONE DAY'.

#BE_THE_STRONGEST_VERSION_OF_YOURSELF

Regards,
@dudealone - Fapstronaut

 

I didn't relapse or watched P didn't M or O but I watched some cleavages from national cleavage day on my last streak from 24 to 28 dec 2019 and that lead to some erections and therefore something wet came out from Peehole, so I think that was precum and therefore I reset my tracker to 0. So any suggestions for the same and what to do next???

 

Forgot to say thank you for that, was scrolling dow on my old threads.So thanks a lot.. It would be great if you could provide some info on my latest thread weird withdrawals.

 

I am doing fine and in all my 82 days streak, I didn't did M or O and didn't watched P at all. But past 2-3 days, I was watching a TV show and my attention was catched by slightest curve of the girl in that show but neither I fantasized nor I touched myself and therefore I asked many people on this forum and they say it's a natural process and you must go on as a relapse is only one where you PMO or at least edge ... So, that doesn't count as a relapse at all as I had only thoughts for a while after watching a slightest curve (no nudity was there). It was like in past 2-3 days I had it only once a day in my mind but I acknowledged the lady in my thought and I admire her for her beauty and go on doing some other stuff.

Now, I am 8 days away from achieving my first goal of 90 days and it seems to me that this will be a lot motivating me to achieve my subsequent goal of 180 days which I definitely have to but I must say that the longer you go on streaks you will see benefits like more attention but sometimes like happening to me from past 2-3 days triggers will grab your attention so therefore...

It was a update of my streak and if anyone has any opinions and suggestions to share you are welcome

Regards,
@dudealone.

 

before this streak of 82 days my earlier relapses were made in the following procedure everytime and this 82 days have made me strong that I haven't encountered myself doing any of these stage nor do I have any urge to do PMO, it was just a trigger that grabbed my attention and I eradicated that from my mind but it took 2 important days, so that's what the benefit of going on longer streaks but many experienced users on this forum have warned me to go as long as you could because a relapse isn't a worth one.

 

Thanks man, I will definitely see to that thread. I have read some of it earlier too.. Anyways thanks for your suggestion.

BE THE STRONGEST VERSION OF YOURSELF.
Regards,
@dudealone

 

After 2 yrs I am here to say that it was whole ups and downs journey of NoFap. I failed a lot but got to learn to control urges. Starting again from tomorrow.