[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

You did not relapse, though do not peek again. Good luck.
I advise you blocking porn access completely, which im trying to do too.

 

Day 12/90. Urges and near relapses. Still here....let's go!!!!

 

Day 1

 

No its not a relapse or not even a slip. But its good way to fail. It made me fail a lot of times especially in the first weeks

 

I use Adguard and i let my brother to block the acess to perental control with a password that i will never guess. But for the phone just the iphone parental control in setting , with the same thing with the password. And i can relate to your problem … i am in the dating apps and its not working for me … and recently i destroyed opportunitie with some girl i liked and it cause me to return to porn and failed after 93 days. One thing i know even after so long. pmo still ambush me in every turn. But i am not so upset on the failure, i just have so much rage and anger in the last few days , any advices?

 

Day 3
Doing good

 

Day 3 no porn. Allowing masturbation to fantasies of real life previous partners only. I know this isn't hard mode but I deem porn to be my biggest problem

 

Day 4

 

Day 30!

 

5/90

 

Day 6

 

2 days.

 

Day 62/90 completed (L3)

 

For me any artificial stimulation that releases dopamine counts as a relapse. If it was by accident I wouldn't count it but if I search it intentionally I would count it as a relapse since the negative habit is being reinforced.

 

Day 4 check in

 

Day 13

 

Day 4

 

Yes the app name is "cold turkey blocker" . With this App you can add links from websites, which should be blocked and I think not one porn blocker can block everything, so I use this app to help.

About the rage and anger. It helps me to life it out. For the start to can just learn to feel it and maybe go to the forest and scream like crazy, while you feel it. It helped me. But more as this it helps me to tell my opinion to the persons to which I feel angry or feel the rage and the same time to feel the feeling. That sounds crazy for the most, because we learn to suppress the anger, to not hurt anyone or we think " what could others think of me " But living the anger out and telling other about this feeling and your real opinion makes you free.
Also another programm that comes up will be guilt, if you set your anger free. But that is just a programm, a voice that tells you lies and want you to be like you was in the past. Watch the guild and don't believe it.
Maybe for you can be a start to write your anger on paper and I tell you, do NOT censor it! And then the other steps.

Day 2.

 

Trying to find something or a way of life that can give me a bigger and better buzz than faping ever could. Learning things for the first time is certainly one of them.

 

60 days .