[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Soo after around 215 days streak .Have a very good gf who take care of me really well and I love her alot. It's been a year now we are together . Everything was really working fine untill last 4 months when we both end up into a long distance relationship. It really sucks . I have again started into a loop of porn and masturbation . I thought before that having a good gf would help me out with it but as soon as we were having sex it was all fine . But long distance trailed on me . Feeling like doomed frustrated stupid lost focus . Feeling helpless . Don't really know how to deal with it .

 

Day 3/30

 

Day 6/30

Goal: go beyond 7days

 

Day 17

 

Day 23 completed!

No phishing.
I was touching my wife too much lately and when I woke up deep in the night I had these sleepy fantasies about having rough sex with her and I couldn’t sleep. Then I realized that I’ve been considering her as my object of sexual gratification. Which is better then having the whole worlds women as your sexual objects, but still is bad for me and for the relationship. After this realization I was able to cool and fell asleep much easier. And now I want to be more respectful towards her, because my sexual desire shouldn’t be her burdain.

 

Day 01 let's go

 

13/30

 

Day 7

 

19/30

 

2/30

 

Day 4/30

 

Day 21 complete

 

Day 7/30

Today is my birthday, and I don’t have the energy/mood to celebrate it. I think as we get older, the significant of birthday become lesser. It just felt like any other day, no need for big celebration. I’m not depressed or whatsoever haha just getting older

I’m just grateful that I’m alive and my only wish is to beat this 30days challenge and conquer my fears/anxiety

Goal: go beyond 14days

 

Day 18

 

20/30

 

Day 2

 

Day 24 complete.

Doing good, no phishing.

 

Check In day 0 , I'm determined to do this now and no more wasting time I want to be clear headed and focused again

 

14/30

 

Day 2/30