28 year old handsome ladies man virgin

I just read your story. Very identical to me. I cant get hard standing either.
I think your only issue is you try to O too much with a girl aha
I'm telling all these girls to fuck off for 90 days before I try anyhting. Im glad to hear youre mostly healed!

 

Never go back bro. Always bigger and better! I'm currently talking to 5 different chicks. Its just awkward cuz I got to find ways to avoid getting sexual with em to avoid the PIED talk.
Longest 90 days of my life haha I appreciate the support

 

BIG UPDATE:
Day 42 now. I noticed a week ago that my dick and balls have gotten bigger in size. Thought I was crazy but I been keeping track all week and my dick and balls are like twice as big now flaccid.
Before I had a micro peen when I was flaccid.
Super excited as it means my dick is healing from all the years of abuse! One step closer babyyyy

 

Day 49.
Some chick sent me hot nudes last night. Made me so fuckig horny I started masterbating. I stopped myself way before reaching an organization, but mt balls fucking HURT (BLUE BALLS) haha
Next morning my skin on my dick was very sensitive, a little redness, I'm starting to think I've been masterbatinv way too fast and aggressively my whole life

 

Day 65
For some reason don't feel as accomplished as I maybe should.
0 urges to jerk off and not horny at all.
Must be the infamous flat line I heard about.
Hope it gets better! See you boys on day 90

 

Update:
I went 90+ days NoFap hard mode. Slipped up and jerked off 2 days ago. Back to day 0, yay...

First 30 days I noticed so many changes. From day 30 - 100 I didn't notice any difference... Feels like I need to do hard mode for a long long time fml. Wish I could go to younger me and stop him from fapping like a machine.... FUCK MAN

At day 90+ still no erections or morning woods... I might just get a penis implant and call it a day... Fuck this shit man

 

Thanks! And I used to masterbate like 5 times a day for over a decade so i really think i got alot of healing that needs to be done. 90 days wont be enough i dont think...

Right now i wish i had delayed ejaculation. Its so embarassing never being able to get hard. If i stand up while hard i lose the erection too.
You have random raging boners 80 days in?? I was at 100+ and still didnt get them. Oh well I'll try again!
I wish u all the best on your journey as well!

 

Long overdue for an update...

Short history about myself:

• Chronic masterbater (5 times a day) from the age of 12-28? 16 years of destroying my brain and how I viewed woman as objects.
• Haven't had morning wood in a decade (only in my teens, stopped in my 20s).
• Many sexual encounters but unsuccessful to get or maintain an erection.

Porn addiction and snapchat:

• Started watching very vanilla porn. Then slowly I had to watch more kinky / messed up videos to get aroused.
• Fast-forward to my mid 20s where not even porn could get me hard. I started to teach myself how to cum without even being erect.
• I also had an addiction to snapchat. Trying to get nudes from as many women as possible. Also loved to send 10 second videos of me playing with myself (somewhat of an exhibitionist). I was training my body to stay hard for like 10 seconds then would go soft right after.

Doctor visit / blue pills:

• After I admitted I had a problem I saw a doctor. They did a blood test to check my test levels and other things. Doctor said, "You are on above average healthy male and you have higher than average test. I'll give you some blue pills cuz its all in your head. Don't worry this issue is way more common than you think."
• It was nice to hear the doctor say he sees this issue alot. Good to know I wasn't alone.
• Fast forward to a sexual encounter. I took 50mg and my penis was still dead (no response). Second time I took 100mg and I got an extremely weak boner. It was weak but enough to have sex in certain positions.
• My normal friends say when they take 1/10th (10mg) of what I took (100mg) their penis felt like superman. This made it clear to me that I definitely have pied especially if 100mg of blue pills barely worked.
• Threw away blue pills, time for NoFap hard mode.

NoFap journey:

• Hard mode is the only way to go.
• I quit watching porn in Feb of 2020.
• Had many streaks but relapsed thanks to girls sending me nudes on snapchat.
• Longest streak 70 days, 2 streaks for 40 days, and the rest are under 30 days.
• At first it seemed impossible to quit fapping but now I can go on 2-3 week streaks easily.
• I broke my most recent streak (42 days) last night since I got drunk and horny and a girl sent me nudes on snap.

Actions I took:

• Quit porn in Feb of 2020.
• Deleted all dating apps and snapchat last week.
• Focusing on gym, family, and friends.

Results so far:

• My dick and balls have more than doubled in size when I'm soft. Masterbating so much had my dick and balls shrivelled up. This took me 40 days of hard mode to notice this change.
• More brain clarity, more social, have more energy to do things.
• Got a better job, and better results in gym (drive/motivation is up).

Goals/Plan:

• Now that I deleted dating apps and snapchat. I can do a true hard mode with no distractions.
• Plan is to do hard mode now until I start getting morning wood. Once I get morning woods I'll persue women again.

Mental health:

• Its been a freaking roller coaster. I have weeks where I am happy as can be. Then there is weeks like right now where I'm just so sad and negative and down in the dumps. But I just take it day by day. Its all you can do.
• I was dating 2-3 new girls for the past 2 months. To the point I wasn't even excited to go out. It felt like a chore. I just feel so burnt out. Taking a break from everything till I get the morning woods back!

Lets get cured!

 

Flatline sucks...
I am so fucking depressed

 

Honestly just the longest flatline of my life. I feel like there's been 0 progression.
My dick is still dead. No MW.
Once a week I have a girl over where we cuddle and watch a movie but I still don't get aroused or anything.
My mentality most days are really depressed. Usually I'm a very happy person. Been tough lately. Drinking alc helps me get through it.

I used to hard-core PMO for like 15 years. I expect my recovery to be 6months-1 year at least. 90 days won't work for meee